~May 14, 2009 - 2:23 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Yesterday, 13th May 2009, Wednesday:
Yesterday was the worse day of my life.
I was supposed to go out with Jeff, a one on one outing.
Since he wanted to ask Li Xiang along then fine by me.
In the end they were late by 1 hour plus, I didn't sms him to hurry him nor did I scream nor question him when I see him.
Suddenly I see, Jeff not only brought along Li Xiang but he also brought along another friend.
In the end he told me that one of his friend wanted to jump down the building because his friend's girlfriend just broke up with this friend and he went to console his friend.
I didn't say anything.
Well, reasonable so I didn't speak a word.
So we ate KFC for lunch.
I didn't get to finish my meal, they all ate so quickly and I don't want all of them to wait for me so I ate everything halfway.
I also didn't get to finish my drink and I threw it away.
Then they want to go arcade and so I followed.
Then 'prince' Li Xiang want to buy a new ear stud and so I followed.
They want to go Iluma, and so I followed.
In the end all Jeff could ask me is "hey we going to Ang Mo Kio to play lan, u want to come or u want to go home?"
Well, I don't have much objection about that and I'm a very 'anything' person so I followed.
I didn't like the idea of going some place further from my house, luckily the train had some problems and they decide to go Dhoby Ghaut.
Then they played Dota and I played Left 4 Dead.
After like maybe 1 hour plus or 2, we went off.
After reaching the MRT station, Jeff asked me am I going home alone.
I was angry and I left in a huff and I said ya then walked away without turning back.
This outing sounds like a very ordinary plain but it's not.
All the time, I was left being alone.
The least Jeff could do when he see I was feeling dull, he could have accompanied me and talk or joke with me or something.
He didn't.
All he did was continue joking with his friend and leaving me behind to rot or being alone.
For that whole day I was feeling very left out.
The following sms will explain it all.
Me: I don't ever want to go out with you again.Jeff: Y siaMe: Didn't you realise that I was being very quiet for the whole time?Jeff: Thats y i ask u u wann go home 1st ma i know u very boredMe: I wasn't bored! I was feeling down because I was being left out the whole time!Me: what do u take me for? i hosted this outing is for everyone to have fun. i waited for u guys for 1 hour plus, then i meet u eat 1 meal accompany u guys go arcade accompany u guys go shopping and in the end all u could say is "u want to go home?" i follow majority and the least u could do is accompany me more when u see im feeling down isnt it?! i even nearly cry u know or not?! i never felt so left out before. not even by my classmates. at least they did talk to me. cant u spare a thought of how i felt?! i wasn't bored! i was feeling left out! i feel awful! just for 1 moment cant u guys spare a thought for me?! prince li xiang say what then u all listen. then what about princess crystal that is going against her own will to follow what majority says?! my tolerance level got limit ok?! the very very least u could do is at least joke or talk to me more and not just ask some questions reguarding me going home!!! u know how i feel a not?! im not angry nor mad nor pissed. IM FURIOUS! i have feelings too u know?!Jeff: I only can say Sry because i really don know wat to talk to u sia then u ask me out then u say cannot say reject u then i no choice.. And about today 1 hour late is because today i friend really wann jump down from building i swear... I didn't mean to late 1 hour deMe: wth?! i never say cannot reject me lor! if u have something on just now all u could do is sms! u know my friend just now decide not to come because he thought i will be having fun! so did i thought so! but i was wrong! and since u got emergency just now, the least i did was i didn't sms u to hurry or scream at u when u reach isnt it?! i spare thoughts for u. what about u?!Jeff: Hais... Sry i didn't know siaMe: u dont put words in my mouth! i checked the msn chat history and i never say u MUST go out with me. i asked u politely. also, dont i have the rights to voice out? i spare thoughts for u. u guys wan go what i just go with the flow. what about doing what i want? u got think about that or not?Jeff: Wah i really dono wat to say sia...Me: of course u duno what to say because the person who really is at fault is not me. if u think about it, didn't a spare thoughts for u guys the whole day? u know, my attitude changed a lot since u broke up with me. but still, some things that will never change. i will not tolerate being taken for granted.In the end, he didn't reply.
I guess he really have nothing to say.
That day was like really a bad day.
I asked so many people and they all said the same thing.
Either "How can he do this to u?! I would have just walked away!" or "Why didn't you just walk away?!" or "I feel that he doesn't even treat you as a friend in the first place."
Well, what more can I do?
Only, I am never going to go out with him again.
I shall not tolerate being taken for granted.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
