~September 30, 2008 - 3:38 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
WOAH!
Today is art exam, yesterday night never sleep because I haven't finish my art.
Then Wei Jie ask me dont overtire myself, because I haven't been sleeping early recently.
Freaking tired now but I will wait till about 4pm because about that time Wei Jie AKA Xia0moonmoon will be home!
Oh and I was very touched by Wei Jie's 1 thing he tell me yesterday, "you are a very special girl to me no want my love 1 to over tired herself =)"
XD
Just now went out with him very happy but very tired.
I cannot stop complaining that I am tired because I really am.
Because Wei Jie ends earlier than me by 1 hour so he meet me at ******* MRT station.
Then I see him I blush.
>.<
Heh..
Then we hold hands, hug and kissed but uh his freaking big bag stopped me from hugging him back.
LOL
End up he change from sling to shoulder, then I finally can hug him back.
I enjoyed myself even though we were just walking aimlessly around Bugis Junction.
As long as he is by my side, the venue or the weather doesn't matter much to me.
I never loved anyone till so crazy before haha!
I really hope this fairytale story of ours never ends!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 28, 2008 - 11:50 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Last Friday was the last day of school.
As usual the whole day is boring until when we are about to go home, Lucas and Ammar throw Yasin into the dustbin.
After that Aloysius and Lucas still push him down, deeper into the bin.
HAHA! It was hilarious!
Then he cannot get up.
After awhile, we got chased out by Miss Ngor..
>.<>
Yesterday, as usual, every Saturday I go to auntie Sharon's place except yesterday I brought my art there to draw.
After reaching there, I see him sitting there at the lobby.
>.<
After seeing him I was very happy and only thing I know is I wanna hug him tightly.
Just like my dream..
OOPS! Im staring into blank space again.
(It's what I do best LOL)
Then after the time is up, we went in the studio to dance.
Because it's my first time dancing with him, I become blur especially when my heart is beating really fast.
Then I keep dancing the wrong thing..
>.<
Then after that he said he wanna go buy things at Cheers so I went to accompany him.
AHEM!
I don't want to explain the details at this part.
LOL After that I take out my art to do, OMG I only left about 1 days!
Then after I take it out to do, everybody keep looking at me..
*STRESS*
At the studio, I complete the half complete sketch and I drew the outline for 1 of the picture and half of another picture.
Wei Jie left the studio at about 1am, I am very sad but then after that we sms each other.
By the time I reach home is about 2am and I am very tired.
He sms me say he go to sleep first, because I am tired so soon I went to sleep too.
I still dream of him..
I dreamt that we were having candle lit dinner.
We were holding onto wine glass and saying cheers to each other.
After dinner we kissed for a very long time, it felt very real.
After waking up, I wished the dream never end.
LOL I think I'm crazy about him.
XD Oh and this is the picture I done before I go to auntie Sharon's place and the one below it is the one I complete there. 
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 26, 2008 - 7:10 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Last night, I couldn't sleep, because I kept thinking of somethings...
Today, I went to the National Library with Wei Jie to study for my maths.
Before we go into the library, we first went to Bras Plaza to buy my necessary materials for my art.
No matter where we walk I just couldn't find the suitable eraser to erase lines.
Finally, no choice so I just anyhow buy 1 from Art Friend since I am a member there (got 10% discount LOL).
Then after that, we head down to the library.
We walk up and down, couldn't find the right spot to sit down.
After finding the right spot to sit down, we really studied.
His maths is really better than mine haha..
>.< Then we from about 3pm studied till 5-6pm (cant remember too well, too into studies and forgotten about the time).
We sat very near each other and I don't dare to take deep breaths, afraid that he might hear how fast my heart beat is.
Then after awhile, he put his arms around me and then my heart beats faster.
When it's about 5-6pm, we walked together to City Hall MRT holding hands XD.
My heart was beating real fast too.
After we reach the MRT, we sat down at the terminal.
The only thing I can think of is "should I kiss him? or let him kiss me? or should I just go home? but I don't feel like leaving... what should I do?"
Thoes are the thoughts I have yesterday night that's why I couldn't sleep.
After that we sat at the station for about half an hour because I cannot decide what to do.
End up, I keep thinking "if I don't do it now then it will be 2-3 weeks later"
So when the train come and it's the train I want to board, I kissed his cheek but he turned around and we kissed 2 times on the lips.
>.<
The feeling is sensation. =X
Then I cannot stop thinking about it, once I thought of it my heart beats real fast.
I think I am crazy about him already, LOL.
I hope and I know we will last long.
I don't know how I know, I just feel it...
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 24, 2008 - 7:07 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Yesterday is boring, school is boring.
After reaching home I chatted with Wei Jie whole day till I have to go for dance lesson.
When I was there, aunty Sharon wanted me to lead 1 guy for the bronze cha cha.
Because he had forgotten his steps he tend to anyhow step and anyhow move his hands.
He nearly 吃我的豆腐。
After telling Wei Jie about it he seems very bui song with that person.
After that talk to Wei Jie from 11 pm to 1:30am.
After that I eat MacDonalds for supper and I eat until very full.
Today morning after waking up, I feel sick.
I keep having the feeling of vomiting, it must be the MacDonalds..
Anyway today is also boring.
I today realised I have a lot of things to catch up in maths which makes me freaking stress now.
After school finish, I go home.
Then I have been doing art for the whole day.
It's very eye sore because it's so ugly.
>.<
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 23, 2008 - 6:07 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Yesterday, I went out with Wei Jie.
At first I thought I will be very sad going to places I have gone to with Jeff.
After reaching City Hall, though there are a lot of memories but I don't feel a thing about it.
To me thoes memories now are just trash waiting to be thrown away.
I had a great time with Wei Jie yesterday, going from places to places, taking pictures for my N'level art.
One thing is that, whenever we take the escalator he always stand so close to me.
I can feel his hand trying to hold my hand.
Whenever he does that, my heart starts pounding really fast and I felt as though I can't breathe.
I don't know what to do, either to walk further away or just let him grab my hand.
I did try to let him grab my hand but he just didn't grab it >.<
Aiyoh, my heart keep racing up and down like a roller coaster..
Yesterday, this outting made me realised 1 thing.
My feelings towards him is not just to replace Jeff but I really like him.
The thing I am most afraid now is that we will not last long and I get hurt once again.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 4:52 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
(NOTE: I always call Bryan Chung Bryan and other Bryans I know I did add their sir name)
19/09/08 (last Friday) is band farewell party.
In the afternoon I had a small conflict with Bryan so I went to Juliet's house.
Lol Brandon is so cute when he play WII. >.<
After that Bryan came to Juliet's house then we all play WII together and so called conflict resolved.
After that I went to Bryan's house and he showed me this host show called "Wipe Out".
It was hilarious and after laughing out loudly I feel much better than before.
After that soon 6pm reach and it's time for the band farewell party.
I thought I will have a fun time but it's so boring that I keep complaining to my friend lol..
So far, the most happiest thing is PRIZE PRESENTATION!
Shocking thing is, Percussion section (the picture above) gave the leaving seniors (the 3 girls at the left including me) the biggest present in the whole band.
Heh, I like the present inside but no offence Wei Jie, I like you but dosen't mean that makes me change my mind of hating pink. LOL
The next day, is a Saturday!
I went to Aunty Sharon's place as usual and brought 3 tong luo shao with me.
Dont know what it is?
This is Tong Luo Shao (Red Bean Paste In PanCakes, Doreamon Eat de!)
I gave 1 to Bryan Tan, 1 to Lenise and 1 to Wei Jie so that they can share with their brothers and sisters.
After that as usual, talk with them till time is up for them to practice.
Then uh.. I don't think I need to give details already.
By the time I reach home it was about 2am and damn I am so freaking tired...
The next day is Sunday, as usual every Sunday is outting with father.
Then some bad things happened. (Also can't say details)
Then for some reason, Wei Jie confessed to me.
Because at that time I like him too but I don't know what to reply him, so I didn't reply him for a very long time.
Then blah blah blah (also lazy type details, too long already).
So now, even though we like each other, we still haven't together.
It's just too fast for me to move on like this, also on that very day Bryan got a new girlfriend.
After 2 years being single he finally found the right girl for him, I feel very happy for him.
I will continue yesterday on another post.
This post is too long already...
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 19, 2008 - 11:18 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Oh ya!
I want to special thanks to Bryan, Wei Jie, Ka Khay, Lenise and Jerlin to always stand by me when I am sad.
I realised I actually have a lot of friends who will stand by me always.
^_^
It's better to have 5 people standing by me rather than 1.
=D
=P
WEEEEEEE!
Especially Bryan, forever my SFF!
Maybe not SFF but SFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 11:18 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Yesterday afternoon I actually intended to bring him to Sentosa, I wanted to make sandwiches, fruit juice, cook crabstick and buy cake to make up to him.
What I mean is because last month I haven't been able to celebrate his birthday properly with him, so I want to at least make him touched and at least make him like me back a little but because I have facial at night so I didn't go.
Last night was like a nightmare.
When I was on my way home from the place where I do my facial, I saw 1 missed call from him.
I was shocked and I sms him back asking him why did he call me for.
Then he tell me that next Wednesday he is free and ask whether today's meeting can be postpone to that day.
Then I say ok.
Then I am wondering why he is so busy plus it's already holiday so I asked him is it he got girlfriend?
Then he replied back "ya.."
At that moment I was shocked and sad, he lied to me about not wanting to have any girlfriends before National Service.
Then I called him then of course, he talk to me like no body's business.
He doesn't even care if I am his friend or not, he also doesn't care if I live or die.
Then after I hang up his phone, he sms me saying he have no girlfriend, he lied to me.
Then after a while he sms something like "Fine, since u still love me so much I give u 5 days to make me like you back. IF within this 5 days you cannot make me like you back then forget about me."
My first thought was "WHO THE MOTHER FUCKING HELL YOU THINK YOU ARE TO OFFER ME THIS KIND OF CHOICE?! YOU LIKE ME THEN TOGETHER THEN DON'T LIKE LIAO THEN DON'T GIVE A SHIT."
Because of my stupidity I thought I should give it a shot so I agreed.
Then after a while, a sms came saying "The deal if off. Just now that was my friend. Even if I did like you back I will not be happy."
So I reply him back asking him "So when you are with me, you are unhappy or happy?" and he said "unhappy"
Then I ask him "Then the girlfriend is what happen?"
Then he said "I had girlfriend de but she just broke up with me" and my thought is "SERVE U RIGHT! YOU TREAT ME BADLY, YOU KEEP LYING TO ME EVEN AFTER THE BREAK UP, YOU PLAY MY FEELINGS LIKE AS THOUGH YOU ARE PLAYING WIT TOYS. NOW IT'S PAY BACK TIME! BECAUSE YOU ARE SUCH A JERK THAT'S WHY YOUR GIRLFRIEND BREAK UP WITH YOU PLUS I BET THIS RELATIONSHIP IS ONLY LIKE WHAT? 2 WEEKS? HAH! I CAN'T WAIT TILL YOU GET A NEW GIRLFRIEND THEN SHE DUMP YOU AGAIN. I CAN'T WAIT TILL YOU SUFFER BADLY TILL YOU DIE!"
TSK TSK!
After a good cry and Wei Jie's advice, I feel much better after a night's sleep but 1 thing bad is that all these are affecting my sleep and in the morning I cannot wake up.
So, today I didn't go to school again.
Not that I do it on purpose but I really just can't sleep right and wake up at the right time.
Today is band farewell party and I hope I have a great time and also...
SERVE YOU RIGHT ASSHOLE! YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A LOSER IN DISGUISE, NO SOMETHING BETTER! YOU ARE NOT A LOSER IN DISGUISE, YOU ARE A LOSER YOURSELF! IQ ALSO NOT HIGH, I THOUGHT AT LEAST CHARACTER NICE. NOW YOU CHANGED FROM BAD TO WORSE, ARE JUST A WHOLE LOT OF SHIT AND CRAP THAT SHOULDN'T EVEN APPEAR IN MY LIFE. BOTH CHARACTER AND STUDIES BAD, YOU CAN NEVER HAVE A GOOD FUTURE. YOU THOUGHT NOW YOU ARE ALREADY GOING THROUGH NIGHTMARES? IM TELLING YOU, YOUR NIGHTMARES HAVE JUST BEGUN! I CURSE YOU THAT YOU FOREVER WILL NOT FIND ANOTHER GIRL BETTER THAN ME AND YOU WILL SUFFER EMOTIONAL PAIN EVEN AFTER YOU DIE. GO TO HELL LOSER!
WEEE!
Right now I have gotten over this and I will be looking forward to another brighter day like tommrrow and the day after tommrrow and etc etc.
My real happiness has just begun >=B
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 16, 2008 - 5:07 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Last night, I watched rule no#1 with my mother and sister.
At first it was because I couldn't sleep, then I realised the more I watch the more I can't sleep.
Because the first time I watched this show was with him, Jeff.
Till now I still cannot forget him..
Right now, typing this blog, tears are rolling down my cheeks...
The pain and the memories we made is carved deeply into my heart.
It hurts really bad and I cannot do anything about it but to tolerate.
I never do anything wrong to hurt him, I treat him very nicely but in return what I get is pain and sadness.
I can understand if we quarrel then broke up, at least there is a reason.
The reason for this break up is "i have no feelings for you already".
It just doesn't make much sense.
I tried doing stuffs to forget him, after I finish the task, thoughts of him just pops into my head.
I tried many ways to forget the love I have for him.
I even tried liking someone but no matter what, I just don't like that guy because I still love Jeff very much.
I don't know how long I can hold on...
Whenever I need someone to talk to, I call them but they always fail to answer my calls..
Haiz...
I really never have this kind of pain before...
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 14, 2008 - 3:51 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
WOAH!
Now is 4am already, got to hurry!
This morning because I suddenly urgent and need to use the toilet, then that stupid Wei Jie sms me then I take my phoone along with me.
End up I put it on top of the washing machine, I forget that this washing machine is new and it is not flat.
So, my phone slided off the washing machine.
End up there is a BIG dent OMG!
Wei Jie's fault!
=X
Anyway, after that in the afternoon I went out with Ka Khay to Orchard wearing punk.
After reaching, we first go to Kobayashi to have our lunch.
After finishing our lunch we went to take neo prints.
Also, OMG I love my phone!
At first taking this picture is freaking blury because it is too near but there is auto focus!
Not so clear but still clear, I don't know what am I saying.
LOL
By the way, the main purpose of this outing is because Ka Khay want to buy hoodie shirt with pocket.
In the end, I am the one who bought 6 items.
All are gothic lolita-related, 2 jackets 1 black 1 white (different designs of course), 1 white blouse, 2 skirts 1 black and white with spider web and 1 black and lastly a gothic lolita dress!
Ka Khay couldn't find the hoodie shirt she wanted so end up she didnt buy anything.
After that, we actually intended to go to art friend at Takashimaya to buy her art stuff end up we stop at the bookstore. (I dont know the name, it is some japanese name.. this store Bugis also got)
End up she bought a lot of comics.. =.=ll
After that when we go to art friend and the stuff she wanted to buy is actually a whole set of pencils.
Because I have it too and I never used it before plus I don't think I will use it much in the future so I decided to sell it to her.
In art friend it's $14.95 but I am selling it to her at $10 since it's so called "old".
After that, we take the same train back.
Then I alight at Lavenda mrt station then I take a bus to Charles and Sharon's dance studio.
After reaching there I pllayed psp with Byron and 1 thing I cannot understand is why every time I compete with him his fever is always faster than mine but my accuracy rate is always higher than his.
Anyway I had a fun day today don't want to talk much about the zi lian wei jie...
LOL
Still take my camera down there zi lian...
Wooh!
Now is 4:20am better sleep!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 12, 2008 - 11:49 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
This post is about my this whole week...
Sunday, is Bianca birthday also on that day I had conflict with my sister.
After reaching auntie Sharon's place, we went to the toilet first then we have conflict there.
From friendship problems she linked it to family problems that's why she cried for almost 1 hour.
After that, my sister told auntie Sharon what happen and the reason she cry.
After my sister stop crying, we went to Bianca's house to celebrate her birthday.
I reach there, I was shocked because the condominium is so bloody small.
Most of the time Lenise and I were at the poolside talking about that is troubling me.
After that we went up to sing for Bianca her birthday song then we went in her room.
After that we start to disturb her and we took some pictures of her favourite soft-toy turtle...
LOL funny right?
Soon it got late and it's time to go home!
Monday I didn't go to school, so I went to help out at my mother's shop.
Tuesday I woke up late, so I ask uncle to fetch me to school.
End up, I got scolded badly and I cried.
I remember clearly my last words were "If you dare to scold my mother about this matter I will hate you forever!" (I said this because he said he want to scold my mother for my mistake)
Then I slammed his car door real hard.
After that, I was so pissed I cannot control my anger.
After my anger subsided, I realised school is much boring than usual because most of the teachers didn't come.
Mr Salim gave us maths worksheet but I finished it in 1 lesson so I have nothing else to do.
Then almost every lesson I play my psp.
Also he said after finishing the worksheet he had given to us, we can go home so I went home immediately since I had finished it.
On my way home, I called my mother and tell her about uncle then at first she talk to me nicely but soon the "niceness" turns into a lecture.
End up when I walk home, my tears cannot be controlled and they start rolling off my cheeks.
I was pissed at them so I didn't go my mother's shop to help her out.
That whole day was so boring!
Because of Tuesday's events, I decided not to go to school on Wednesday.
Yi Jie called me, when I pick up she ask me why didn't I go to school and I told her I am sick.
I really AM sick but not the type which is very very bad so I didn't go see a doctor.
After that I go to my mother's shop to help her out.
Thursday morning was bad just because I didn't go to school.
Yi Jie keep calling me then I keep rejecting her call then I off my phone.
After that she call my house but I have to pick up quickly because I don't want to wake my mother up.
After that she scold me for playing truancy but I didn't.
I didn't PLAY TRUANCY because play truancy means children who lie to their parents that they are going to school but they are not.
Well anyway this "thing" lasted for about 1 hour including the sms I sent to scold her then she send back =.=ll
Wasted 1 hour of my sleep...
Zzzz...
After that I went to my mother's shop to help her out again.
Thursday night, I was afraid that she will call me again on Friday morning because I intend on not going to school again so I put my phone to silent mode but it will still vibrate so I put my phone in my closet in the middle of a pile of shirts.
Friday morning when I wake up, I was a little shocked to see no missed calls at all.
However something bad woke me up.
I dreamt of Jeff kissing Ka Khay in front of me and still ask her to be his
girlfriend...
I still love him and Ka Khay is consider my good friend.
How can they treat me like this...
*sigh*
After that I thought I can sleep back and at least have a better dream, turns out that dream continued.
It is like as though I see their dating process...
They kissed, hold hands, hugged...
No matter how hard I try, I will no longer be the girl who Jeff wants to be in his arms...
After finally waking up from that nightmare I went to my mother's shop again to help her out.
I cannot stop thinking of that dream...
I got very depressed the whole day thinking of him.
I thought I got him out of my mind for a time already but all of a sudden a lot of memories of him suddenly came back popping in my mind making my brain going to explode...
I really cannot understand one thing is that day when he dump me, I asked him why he lose feelings for me and he said he did some thinking.
I asked him he thought of what and he said he thought of being with me is very unhappy.
Strange thing is I asked him the same question today but he say he was happy being with me.
I really don't understand.
I cannot say nobody understand how I feel but all I can say is I don't understand why he must treat me like this.
It is like as though throwing my effort away by the phrase "I have no feelings for you"
I will still pretend to be happy as usual and hope my fake happiness turns into a real happiness then I will forget him eventually.
I don't think I will forget him that easily.
I have never felt like this before, every time when my relationship fails I only cry for maximum 2 days.
This time is different, it's been almost 1 month but I still cannot forget him..
*sigh*
My life is a little boring now because I have no boyfriend and no friends who will ask me out on weekdays but it is like a roller coaster to me because the love I have for him still haven't fade a bit...
I bet to him he doesn't really care because he doesn't even like me anymore why should he even care for me isn't it?
This saddens me more because I am not used to when a person treats me really nice once all of a sudden treat me very cold...
Hope tommrrow is a better day?
Tommrrow I am going out with Ka Khay to Orchard shopping, I hope everything turns out right...
Also one more thing, Wei Jie will make my phone bill explode because of the sms he send to me everyday. =.=ll
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 6, 2008 - 4:57 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Yesterday I went out with some friends I know from Charles and Sharon dance studio..
Sad thing is Bryan Tan, Byron and Bianca cannot go because Byron doesn't want to study for his PSLE so auntie Kim didn't let the 3 of them out.
Lol, Bryan tan was so looking forward to yesterday's outing and he is really pissed with Byron I bet..
Anyway because the rest decided to watch movie so Wei Jie decided to first buy the tickets then we go meet up with them.
Wei Jie, his sister and me went to Cine Leisure to buy movie tickets...
I reach Summetset Mrt about 12:30 and guess how long I waited for them to reach?
About 30-40min....
After that, when we reach Cine Leisure, we cannot decide what movie to watch plus the time slots of those movies doesn't match the time due to their curfew.
The only movie left that we can watch is WALL.E and guess what?
I had watched it last Sunday =.=ll
This means I watched it 2 times already...
Anyway after we buy the movie tickets, we went to Bugis to meet up with Lenise, Denise, Darren, their maid and Bryan Yew.
We go Bugis because Darren and Bryan Yew need to buy their clothes for the performance during November.
End up we shopped almost the whole of Parco including BHG and we also shopped the whole of Bugis street.
End up we could not find anything within our budget then Wei Jie keep saying "let's go 1 more round" but end up we went many many rounds...
I have never walked in Bugis street for so long.
Because it is so stuffy and packed with people, the girls, we can hardly breathe.
The problem is because we are not the one looking for clothes so we don't know what the guys need or want.
We follow them from about 2-4 pm and we never even have a chance to sit down and rest.
End up we cannot take it anymore so we waited outside Bugis street for them.
A lot of times while we are walking, I was thinking about him...
I can remember clearly we always go to Bugis to window shop then we will walk from Bugis to SunTec then to Marina Square then to City Hall Mrt...
I miss him so badly...
After the guys give up buying their stuff because they cannot find any, we decided to just go to Cine Leisure, watch movie and rest at the same time.
When we reach there, I saw the arcade then I remember clearly how I first like him..
We were at the arcade playing table hockey then he accidentally injure my finger.
Then he keep apologising to me and he keep asking me "are u ok?"
That is the first time I like him...
Because nobody other than my family treat me that nice before and I thought for a change, I met someone who really cares for people...
A lot of places we went to, gives me the happiness I never had but because of 1 sentence ("I don't love u anymore") ruined my happiness...
Anyway, after the movies we went to Takashimaya to have our dinner.
Then we walked to Orchard Mrt and go home.
It's been a long time I have been to Orchard mrt already and I was shocked to see how beautiful it is. XD
Then Wei Jie and his sister go separate ways with us already because they live at Woodlands.
As for the rest, because they are brothers and sisters of course they go home together lol...
They live and Parsir Ris which is the same route as me so we take train together.
Oh ya also, all along (the whole day) I was talking to Lenise about what is bothering me and I was shocked because nobody ever comfort me like she did...
All along people thought I don't like people hooking onto my arm but for once Lenise hook her arm onto mine and for once I feel really special.
After I alight the train, she sms me...
She sms me telling me not to worry about my ex bf and my so called "friends".
She also say "we may not know each other for long but still, after all i'm just 8 digits away. =D today was really fun and we're closer than before. =) take care, i'll see u tommrrow"
Heh... I was really happy yesterday and I really look forward to going out with them again.
As for Jeff...
I really miss him a lot and I still can remember the feeling of him hugging me...
Always...
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~September 4, 2008 - 10:27 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
It is extimated 1 week 5 days after the break up and I still cannot forget him...
This pass 1 week I haven't been sleeping and eating well...
I was thinking of him so much that I just cannot sleep...
I feel like I cannot live the days without at least hearing his voice, so I decided to give him a call...
Yesterday afternoon I cannot take it anymore so I called him...
After hearing his voice, I cannot stop myself from crying out...
Then we talked for quite long but while we are talking I keep crying...
All I can think of and talk to him about is about our past relationship...
I just cannot forget how happy I was being with him and I guess right now it is the equilibrim of that happiness...
After we hang up the phone, I did continue to cry for awhile then I stop...
I did feel much better after talking to him for a period of time but today..
my pain come back again...
I still miss him and love him very much...
I cannot stop myself from thinking about him but because he dont love me anymore, even if I call him he might think that I am very anoying then he might dont want to even be my friend...
I really dont know what else to do...
I still cannot stop loving him....
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
