The past 2 week I did not do much.


I went to my mother's shop to help her out and on every Wednesday and Friday as usual I have lessons.


Then on Saturday I actually didn't want to go studio but my mother ask me to go help her with the costumes so I went.


Nothing much happened except I don't dare to look at him..


After that the following week Wei Jie called me and say we cant be together but he do not want to because of break up, he lost a very good friend.


So as usual I go to my mother's shop last week to help her out and on Wednesday and Friday I have lesson.


Then on Saturday I played Captain's Ball with the class.


I am in Bryan Tan's team which is the opposite team of Wei Jie's.


Lol I have so much fun then on Sunday my whole body sore.


Sunday is Lenise's sweet 16 birthday.


After my Hip Hop class, me and my sister went to Lenise's place, I played DJ MAX: CLAZZIQUAI Edition, we played Water Captain's Ball, Land Captain's Ball, Dodge Ball, Pac Man, Catching, Ice and Water and a bit of Basketball.


Because of these extreme sports my whole body sore more yesterday.


However I recover today.


That's all, I cannot be bothered to write about my feelings.


^u^ (this can be a fake smile)

I have been stoning at this page for many days already because I didn't know how to explain the situation I am in right now...


My darling Wei Jie and I broke up on 15/10/08.


When I finally have the feeling that I finally found a person who can complete my sentence, understand me and know what I am thinking.


I really love him but because his mother found out the relationship between us is not only very close friends but Boyfriend Girlfriend Relationship (BGR).


I know very well he feels the same way towards me but this world is so unfair.


Because of other's happiness (his mother), Wei Jie and I have to sacrifice our happiness just to satisfy one.


I cry every night thinking of all the wonderful memories we had in the past 2 weeks.


I cannot believe that such a wonderful fairytale had been ruined by his own mother.


I miss him very badly and I guess I will not be seeing him for a very long time because my mother found out and she do not allow me to go to studio every Saturday.


I miss him very badly already and yet I couldn't even see him once a week.


Why does things have to turn out the opposite of what we planned.


We still thought of our after marriage life and our dream house just last week however this thoughts just washed down the drain on 15/10/08.


Our phone discussion turned out into an argument and a moment of spur I said we should really break up rather than a fake break up.


He tried to persuade me to reconsider because he do not want our relationship to end like this but I was too confused and sad so I hang up the phone.


After that, I sms him "I'm sorry, I really do love you but I do not want because of your mother's disagreement to our relationship to spoil our perfect relationship. I do not want to hide this from your mother as she already dislike me, if she find out that this is a fake break up she will be more furious than before. Please do understand how I feel. I really still love you a lot and I want to be with you but I do not want to get you into anymore trouble. As long as you are safe, I am satisfied. I know this hurts but time will heal everything. I will not forget the wonderful moments I spent with you and I really do hope someday your mother will have a better impression towards me. I will still love you even after we part, try to forget me and everything will turn out better."


After that, I cannot stop crying.


Truthfully speaking I do not want him to forget me because I really do believe that someday we will be together again and by the time we will create a more beautiful and worth reading fairytale story.


After writing that sms to him, I regretted because he didn't reply me anymore.


I gues he is so hurt that he cried badly.


I really didn't want to part from him but I think this is the best choice we have.


To Wei Jie: I really am sorry. I hope during this period of time you will try to persuade your mother that I am not that type of girl she thinks I am. I also hope that we can be close friends. Please let me call u darling 1 last time.


DARLING!!! WEI JIE I REALLY LOVE YOU!!!

9/10/08 - 12/10/08 I went out with Wei Jie 3 days in a row.


I can no longer say that it is the best day of my life yet because as long as the day I am with him, I will be very happy.


On 9/10/08, Thursday, we intended to go to Wisma to fix our phone however because 1 of the problem with my phone is I cannot save contacts to my sim card and I did not backup my contacts in my computer, so I didn't get my phone fixed that day.


After that we window shopped Takashimaya, Heeren and Paragon.


He bought Famous Amous cookies and we go to Toys'R'us at Paragon.


I used a noodle-like float thingy to hit his butt and he used a swimming board to block.


After that we got hungry and we went to Takashimaya's food court to eat.


I ate baked pasta and he ate baked rice then we exchanged 1/4 of our food with each other.


I regretted buying baked pasta because baked rice is much more nicer.


After that we went to Esplanade and we sat at the lobby and we played DJ MAX PORTABLE 2 missions for each other.


After we gave up playing DJ MAX PORTABLE 2, we talk awhile first then we went to Elisabeth Walk.


After that when we are at Elisabeth walk, we shared the Famous Amous cookies!


I eat only 2 pieces and the reason why I remember it so clearly because I was nibbling the cookies and he thought I ate 3 or 4 already.


After that we sat there from about 2:00pm to 7:00pm, doing what of course couples usually do.


After that it's time to go but I give him the puppy dog eyes and the only thing he can say is "ok ok ok ok ok!" and I hugged him like a baby koala bear clinging onto the mummy koala bear.


After that we went back to the MRT station and when we parted I was so sad, we only parted for a few seconds and I already start to miss him badly.


After that we sms each other and we still talk on the phone at night till he is so tired he want to hang the phone.


On 10/10/08, Friday, I went to Wei Jie's house.


It is like traveling from 1 end to the other end because it took me 1 hour but the time passed quite fast because he was talking to me all along on the phone.


After reaching Woodlands MRT, he waited for me at the control station, then we walked to his house.


When we reach his house the first thing we did was watch TV together, after that we went down to have our lunch.


After lunch we intended to watch movie together but I was so forgetful that I forget to bring the CD, so we played DJ MAX PORTABLE 2 in his room.


And I am so glad that I am finally a STREET DJ!


Then because we are afraid that his sister might come home any minute so we have to leave his house early.


After that we went to Causeway Point and window shopped.


I saw new hand phone socks and I intended to buy the next time I see it.


WOW!


Time passed really fast and it is time for me to go.


I didn't want to apart from him but I have no choice because I have lessons after that.


By the time I reach home it is about 7:00pm, then I showered, prepared and left house at 8:00pm.


After lessons I went back home and called talked to him on the phone again.


On 11/10/08, Saturday, we went out only from morning to late afternoon because he have lessons at 5:00pm.


We first went to Bugis to check whether the "cannot save contacts" problem is my sim problem or my phone's problem.


After that we went to a nearby shop to buy his mask for the performance.


Then we walked to City Hall to buy donuts from Donut Factory.


We bought the 6 in a box and each of us ate 3.


After eating I feel very bloated, must be the donut expend in my stomach after I drink water.


By the time we finished eating it, it is about 2pm and he can go collect his phone.


So we went to Wisma to collect his phone and get my phone fixed, before that we saw the TV showing When I Grow Up by Pussy Cat Dolls the MTV.


Then he start singing that song, after that we went to get his phone then we shopped a little then I accompanied him to Lavenda MRT and I can remember clearly that the time we parted was 4:30pm and I missed him badly immediately.


Then after I reach home, I showered, find a usable phone to use, watched TV and use the computer.


Soon 7:30pm reached and I prepare my things to go to studio, left house at 8:00pm.


By the time I reached there it was about 8:30pm, after seeing him I am happy yet sad because I cannot do anything else other than look at him.


Then when there is a chance for us to be together, which is at the lobby which I don't know why so coincident again we need to go to the toilet, Bryan Tan, Byron and Darren was peeping at us from the second floor.


Luckily we did not do anything because all I wanted is to pee.


After that when I walked out I saw the 3 of them peeping at the second floor and I point to Wei Jie.


Haha..


Anyway that day was bad because he is in front of me yet I can only treat him as my friend.


We are so close yet so far...

Yesterday was the best day of my life so far.


Yesterday I went out with Wei Jie, he was late and I was late but so accurate we reached at the same time.


HAHAHA!


Our mind must be connected, and I think it is!


Then we went to Sun Tec, he so troublesome still need to change from uniform to house shirt.


Then after that I go change the broken watch I bought the day before yesterday.


After awhile, Bryan called me and disturb me.


Then Wei Jie and I went to Toys'R'us and we slacked around.


After that I used the spongy long long thingy to hit him.


LOL then after that I got hungry so we decided to try the wasabi fries.


It was ok only, the wasabi taste wasn't much.


After that because I eat very slow then we at the same time slack there.


1 scary thing is there are cockroaches in the MacDonalds!


After that I shifted place from opposite Wei Jie to beside him because the cockroach is coming towards me!


Then I continued eating my fries and while I'm eating Wei Jie in hugging me.


I can't hug him back because my fingers are covered in oil and wasabi powder hahaha!


Then we chatted for quite long before leaving the MacDonald.


After that we decided to go some place else to slack and Wei Jie said something about going near Victoria Theatre slack.


After reaching there I suddenly felt high tide and I have to go!


After that he bring me to the Victoria Theatre's toilet.


Because the place is old and dark and I saw in some sort of room the lights are flashing and the corridors are dark.


I decided to scare him because I know he is timid, managed to make him have a little hair raising feeling end up he say in blog that I'm scared.


=.=ll


So anyway after that we went to Elisabeth Walk and sat down at the chairs.


At first he sit at the left side and put his bag on the right side and he want me to sit on his lap.


I was like thinking "why the hell you want me to sit on your lap for?"


So I ask him to move his bag then he give me the very sad face.


Then we hugged and kissed for a very long time and I hugged him like a koala bear when it's about time to go.


I have to go for my facial and he have to go home before his mother scold him.


After reaching the MRT, I don't bare to let go of him.


I continued to hug him like koala bear but I have no choice because we really have to go.


After that when I reach home just nice my mother call home ask me and my sister get ready to go.


After my facial I went for dinner and all I can think about is Wei Jie.


After dinner went home, shower, actually thought of blogging but I was too lazy so I went to bed.


I sms Wei Jie, waited for his reply until I fall asleep.


This morning wake up, sms him again and he called me awhile later.


Then we talked from 9:00am till now 1:10pm.


Hehe!


I feel like we have lot's to say and it will take forever to finish it.


I have real fun talking to him.


He is the best guy I have ever met.


I love him very much and I am crazy over him.


^_^

Thursday, because I have no exam that day, so I did not go to school.


I chatted with Wei Jie on msn the whole day until night, I go for my facial.


Friday, it's the last day of exam.


From 8:00-10:00am is my maths paper 2 afterwards at 2:30-4:00pm is my Geography paper.


In between, I have 4 bloody boring hours.


I was really bored and lazy, so I asked Pei Ling to help me buy 1 packet of bee hoon from the canteen.


After finish eating, I ask Wei Jie to call me to talk to me because I'm freaking bored.


After he called, then Yi Jie, Jennifer and Pei Ling wanted to make pop corn because Pei Ling brought the pop corn machine and the corn to school.


We pluck out the water cooler's plug without permission, and we installed the pop corn machine.


After that, we pour in the corn, switch on the pop corn machine and watch the pop corn pop.


Even though it is lame, but when I watch my Jennifer's reaction I cannot help but to laugh out loud.


Even though the pop corn smells nice but it doesn't have any taste.


So Jennifer and Yi Jie went to the canteen to get salt and sugar.


After we mix the salt and sugar in, the pop corn taste much better.


After awhile Lucas come and he wanted to try the pop corn but Jennifer gave him the one with a hole in it, and in the hole there is a lot of salt and suger in it.


After Lucas eat it, his reaction is really funny and everybody laughed at him.


Then after we have all the fun, everybody started studying and by the way I was talking to Wei Jie on the phone all along.


I in total talked with Wei Jie about 3 hours and we hang up at about 2:15pm then I went in the class to take my exam.


During exam, I sleep the first 30min because I thought I will not be able to do it.


After I wake up I then realised that it is actually very easy so I do the paper.


By the time I complete it there is still a little time so I went to sleep again.


After the exam end I was so happy because after so many years of hard work finally for the first time I totally don't have to study already.


What worries me now is my marks.


After that then I talk to Wei Jie on my way home.


After that I made a phone theme of Wei Jie and me using the photos we took together.


Then I have forgotten what I did after that so I'm not going to continue about Friday.


On Saturday, I was really happy!


After waiting for so long I finally can see Wei Jie!


I cleaned my room the whole room, I mean clean as in wipe table cupboard and sweep floor.


I was so tired after that because those aren't the only thing I did, I did a lot more cleaning.


Then after that I shower then watch tv till 7pm I leave house and go to studio.


Once I see Wei Jie I'm very happy but at the same time very tired because I cleaned my room for the whole day.


After that me and Wei Jie keep missing because we are together hidding at some place hugging and kissing.


>.<


Then 1 part is when they are performing then Wei Jie go out is want to be with me but I go out is to go toilet then after that since I'm out then I go hidding with Wei Jie again.


>.<


Then after that I tell him to go back later he insist he go back immediatly then we went in the studio at the same time then a lot of people's guess is aunty Sharon suspect.


After that I reach home at about 3:00am, freakng tired so I prepare for sleep.


This morning wake up, sms Wei Jie for the whole morning then when it's about 12:00noon we talked in msn.


After that at 1:00pm I went out with my father as usual and we went to eat Ichiban Boshi.


I ordered my favourite Ikura sushi as usual and my sister saw this special dish which is puffer fish.


It's my first time eating puffer fish and it's freaking delicious.


After lunch we watch The House Bunny.


That show is nice, worth watching!


After that we go home, I had a little quarrel with my sister for quite long and I cried for a few hours.


After some thinking I told Wei Jie I have thoughts of breaking up with him but because I love him very much I decided not to and I swear that I am never going to go studio on Saturday already.


So now I'm having serious headache and talking to Wei Jie on the phone at the same time.


That's about all...

After that he help me put it on.

Heh heh very gan dong!

After that we played Dj Max but I keep losing because my psp's button sot already.

Also another reason is because of my level then the playing standard thingy also increased.

After that we go in shelter, talk awhile play psp awhile and took photo! (I don't want to post it up due to some reasons LOL! will post it later)

After that we went to Pet Safari, Daiso then we go Harbour Front Centre to buy Macfurry.

I eat the Oreo one and he eat the mudpie one.

After that we went to Toys'R'us eh then we keep walking aimlessly.

After that, we went out of Vivo and we were near the place where people board and alight the ferry to sentosa. (of course a distance away)

The weather is so good and the cool breeze keep blowing.

Then we kissed and hugged...

After that it's time to go then I very sad because I don't bare to separate with him.

Then we at the train station very bu se de then we sat down.

At the same time, we took photo!

After that we take train to Dhoby Ghaut then we say buy buy I mean bye bye to each other.

Even though we live 2 different ends of Singapore but there is 1 thing that brought us together.

Our love for each other is so strong that it all doesn't matter.

^_^ Happy 01/10/08!

Once, there was a black rose..
It wasn't as beautiful as the other red roses..
Even though it's the only black rose,
nobody seemed to notice it..

The black rose just stood there,
wasting all its remaining life away..

Nobody sees it..
Nobody watered it..
Even the sun wouldn't shine for it..
It was left alone in the darkness..

Slowly...
The petals fell..
The rose wither..

The delicate black rose never spoke a word..
Always trying to hide its flaws..
Always trying to blend in with the red roses..
Still..
It is always being ostracized..
Alone..
Outcast..
Invisible..

Shockingly..
People start noticing the black rose.
A bud start to grow from the stalk..
The bud grew into a new beautiful black rose.
This time, the sun shone brightly for the black rose.
Making it the most beautiful and outstanding one.
Not by the beauty from its physiques..
But from its inner self..

Art Is My Life, Designing Is My Passion, Success Is My Future, Happiness WILL Last Till My Twilight Years

Name: *-* Crystal Chan *-*
Nick: Shirayuki Mizuki, 瑞希 白雪
Age: *-* 17 *-*
Gender: *-* Female *-*
Zodiac Sign: *-* Capricorn *-*
Birthday: *-* 1st January *-*
School: *-* MacPherson Sec *-*
Occupation: *-* Student *-*
Affiliations: *-* Free Tinker *-*
Current Status: *-* Single *-*

-Her Romeo

-Hobbies and Interests:
Chatting, Shopping, Listening To People's Troubles, Watching Anime, Day Dream, Listening To Music, Drawing, Singing, Dancing, Being Very Happy, Swimming, Sight Seeing, Happy-Go-Lucky

-Favorite Animals:
Panda, Baby Seals, Penguins, Dolphins, Killer Whale, Dogs

-Favorite Books:
Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn, Birthing House, Madly Murderous, Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul on Love & Friendship

-Favorite Movies:
Horror Movies, Saddist Movies & Comedies
Those movies that will carve deep in my memories. As long as they are good movies I like them.

-Favorite Music:
Hip-Hop, Pop, Rap, R&B & Classical

-Favorite Shows:
Drama:
Fated To Love You （命中注定我爱你）， Corner With Love （转角遇到爱）， Devil Beside You （恶魔在身边）， Why Why Love （换换爱）， The Clue Collector (霹靂MIT), Black Sugar Macchiato （黑糖马奇朵）, Hana Kimi - Japanese Version （花样少年少女）

Japanese Anime:
Chrno Crusade, Tsukuyomi Moon Phase, Maboraho, Mahoraba, Ichigi100%, Card Captor Sakura, Chobits, Kyou Kara Maou, Full Metal Alchemist, Naruto, Ouran High School Host Club, Aishiteruze Baby, Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu, Ai Yori Aoshi, Magister Negi Magi Mahou Sensei Negima, Fruits Basket, Hand Maid May, Love Hina, DearS, Koi Kaze, Death Note, Tsubasa Chronicals, XXXHolic, High School Girls, School Days, Yamato Nadesico Shichihenge, Sumomo Mo Momo Mo, Gakuen Alice, Suzuka, Mermaid Melody Pichi Pichi Pitch, Shakugan No Shana, Rozen Maiden, Strawberry Panic, Inukami, Shuffle! Memories, kamichama karin, Beating Angel Dokuro-chan, Demonbane, Futakoi Alternative, Avatar The Last Air Bender, Devil May Cry, Kimikiss Pure Rouge, Rosario + Vampire, Vampire Knight, D.Gray-Man, Elfen Lied, Trinity Blood, School Days, Jigoku Shoujo, Blood+

-Boring Movies
-Boring Books
-People Who Backstabs
-People Who Breaks Promises
-People Who Lies
-People Who Acts Nice

-Pass O'level with good grades
-Get into Laselle
-Be a sucessful fashion designer
-Learn interior designing also
-Earning large sum of money
-Go Japan, Paris, USA, Canada
-Buy a silver convertable Volvo and house
-Design my own house
-Have a long drive through coniferous forest roads
-Forever remain SFF with Bryan
-Be with him for a very long time
-Remain Happy Go Lucky Always
-Live a healthy lifestyle, Mentally Socially and Physically

-Life Is Like A Block Of Wood, Plain, Boring, Square And Down To Earth. However If You Believe In It, In Yourself, You Actually Can Achieve Something Magical, Unexpected and Unimaginable.
-Hard Work, Integrity, Enthusiasm, Perserverence, Good Luck & Determination Is The Key To Sucess And Dreams.
-There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.
-Never Let Small Matters Bring You Down, Never Give Up Just Because You Think You Can't.
-NEVER Cherish People Who Doesn't Cherish You.
-As Time Goes By, You Learn Things That You Can Never Learn From Books Or From School.
-Work Hard To Persuit Your Own Happiness And Future.
-Never Let Anyone Stop You From Doing What's Right, What You Like or Best At.
-Only Allow Guys Similar to Edward Cullen, Or Better, To Be With You.
-Everyday, Happy Go Lucky.

A Girl Can Dream You Know?

-So ready for this to be the end, for this to be the twilight of your life, though your life has barely started. You're willing to give up everyhting. It's not the end, it's the beginning.

-"It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" "I like the night," Bella replied. "Without the dark, we'd never see the stars."

-When You Can Live Forever, What Do You Live For?

-Nothing Will Be The Same.

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