~April 30, 2009 - 12:02 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I watched 17 Again on 25th April but this time I watched it with my sister and dad.
I didn't want to watch it again because to me I feel that watching a movie twice is kind of a waste of money but I think that maybe, just maybe this movie is worth it.
Also, another reason why I watched it again is because there were no other suitable time slots for other movies and also my sister want to watch it after I told her that it is a nice movie.
So, yes.
I watched it again.
=.=ll
Anyway, the whole weekdays is the same old same old so far.
I did nothing special in particular.
After school go home, study.
Except today I decided to walk to school to and from school for daily exercise.
Anyway after school I actually only asked Celester and Jerolyn if they want to eat MacDonalds on our way home since we live so near but what I least expect is that Jerolyn asked Xue Qi and Staphanie to come along.
It made me feel really guilty and bad because:
First, they live quite far and they come all the way here just to eat one meal then go home.
Second, I felt bad for only thinking that they might just want to go home to study since tomorrow is exam and leaving them out.
Third, the MacDonalds here have very little seats that can occupy 5 or 6 people and we have problem sitting together.
*sigh*
Anyway past has passed, let it go..
Today I studied Social Studies for the whole day.
After finishing blogging, back to studying because tomorrow is the first day of Mid-Year Examination.
I'm so stress up!
EXAM ARGH!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 25, 2009 - 1:17 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
This whole week, I always go with my classmates,
Celester,
Shu Hui,
Jerolyn,
Xue Qi,
Staphanie and
Yeok Hoon to
BBT for lunch before going home.
By the time I reached home it's always estimated 4-6pm already.
Then I do my homework and play maple after that.
Then after that before sleeping I will always continue reading Birthing House.
It's a very interesting ghost story anyway.
The story isn't draggy at all but it always skip from one scene to another so quickly that I couldn't understand what really happened.
Still it's a nice book to read. (there is a lot of vulgarities)
LOL!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 20, 2009 - 12:33 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
17 Again movie ticket..
Rose Bracelet..
Pizza: Seafood
Total Price: $30
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 12:23 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today I didn't go out with my dad because my sister have something on and decided not to go out with my dad today.
Anyway, I went out with Ming Chuan today for movies.
Before that, we went to Ajisan for lunch.
After that, we watched 17 Again at Grand Cathay.
It's is a very nice movie where it's telling you if you have a second chance will you change your future or will you regret changing your past and wanting to go back to present.
For me, I will pick to move on.
I know there is a lot of things in life that is bad but if you look at the bright side of it, you are actually learning a whole lot of things from it.
What actually I learnt most meaningful is that I had learn my mistakes and I change myself for the better.
I also learnt that you have to face your problems and you have to cherish whoever that is around you.
Do not regret after you lose that person.
Anyway after the movies, we went back to Plaza Singapura to buy for Celest's birthday present.
I will not post the picture of her present first, I will post it on Tuesday night after the present is with her.
Also, I played JuBeat, FINALLY~!
Then we walked from Plaza Sing to Far East Plaza.
I saw this really pretty rose bracelet.
I really like it very much and I need to take it into consideration because of the price.
In the end, I bought it.
Well, literally I didn't buy it.
Ming Chuan bought it for me..
Anyway after that it was about 8 plus then I decided to go for Pizza and so we went to Suntec Pizza Hut.
My hands were quick this time and I paid for the meal, if not he is the one always paying for me.
I feel very guilty..
Anyway that's about all.
-Pictures will be in next post as usual..
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 19, 2009 - 10:23 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Recently, for almost the whole week already, I have been having the same dream over and over again.
I keep dreaming of this cute and handsome guy, he gave me the feeling of being loved again and it felt so real.
How can I even dream of something that felt so real yet I don't even know who is that person.
So near.. Yet so far..
This dream keeps making my head spin.
It arouse the feeling, my feeling, of being loved and loving someone back.
However in reality, the fact is that I feel that I can no longer love anyone, for I don't even love myself.
The fact that I have become a cold blooded person.
Devoid of emotion, being very impassive.
Though this is the fact that is happening, I still believed that someday my true love will come.
Also yesterday one of my friend let me read this 'story' of love.
They used wallets to describe relationships.
Also I myself find it very true and meaningful.
Letting Go
My old Hum II professor used to tell us that wallets are a lot like girls, “You really have to take good care of, because if you won’t, something might happen”…
I know what he means. I just lost a wallet, and I just lost a girl. You know, it’s the exact same thing.
One day, you just realize it’s gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it.
You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization: it’s really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it back.
Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back.
But then, some time passes, and you realize that it’s still gone, and you realize that it’s time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support.
Some tell you you’ll be fine, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences.
They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven’t heard before.
You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don’t really want a new one.
You want the old one that you lost.
No, you don’t want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it.
You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet. And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one, but it’s getting there.
Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. Soon enough, there’s as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.
And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. But then again, you don’t remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it.
That’s because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet. You’re no longer holding on. This new wallet you’re holding, it has all the important cards and pictures and stuff that you need. This is your wallet.
And this time, you tell yourself, you’re never losing this one.
The End
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 1:10 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
The picture below is taken AFTER the blood stopped bleeding..
All I can feel now is the needle feeling that is piercing on my flesh..
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 18, 2009 - 10:16 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
This morning was speech day and guess what?
Such a big day, I had totally forgotten about it.
I have to be school by around 7:15am but I only reached school at 8:15am.
Reason is, Ryan called me at around 7:50am then I rushed and made it in school by 8:15am.
After that I got scolding from Miss Lai.
She forever is so unreasonable.
Anyway after that Mrs Lim then thought of one punishment for those who were late, which is go for 2 more band practice to teach the juniors.
The reason why I was pissed because if they want me to go for 2 more band practice then say so, don't waste my time waiting in the melody room.
Anyway after everything finished and reached home, I prepared my stuff and went to sleep.
I woke up at around 5:30pm then realised I'm late for dance class.
I then called my dance teacher telling her I'm not going because I really am very tired.
Never been so tired before, it just felt like as though I didn't sleep for like a week.
Haha!
Too exaggerated.
Then I sleep all the way until 7 plus.
Then I turned on Restaurant City and chatted with friends.
During that period of time I tried on my Gothic Lolita clothes, read Birthing House and downloaded some songs.
Soon it was about 10 plus and my mother came home.
I ate a little and played Restaurant City, blogged, talk on the phone and chatting in msn.
That's all for today.
Oh I almost forget..
I itchy hand then I went to peel the skin on my toe and in the end my toe wouldn't stop bleeding.
Now I have problem walking..
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 12:46 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today in school is another boring day.
Today passed really quickly and after school I went out with Staphanie, Jerolyn, Xue Qi and Yeok Hoon to Bugis.
They can't stay for too long and so I meet up with Ming Chuan at around 5pm.
After that around 7:45pm leave Bugis to go to my dance class.
Then after that 10pm finish class waited for my mother to fetch me home but end up because my cousin is in the car and they have to fetch her home first.
So we from Lavenda go all the way to Yishun then bought Chong Pang Nasi Lemak for supper.
Now I had finish supper and I am very tired.
I'm heading for bed now.
=)
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 17, 2009 - 12:30 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
This art piece was drawn last week.
These two was drawn just now.
Easter egg!
Happy Easter!
LOL!
Easter is long over.
HAHA!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 12:23 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
These few days, I let go of everything and now I became really happy.
These few days didn't do much.
Yesterday got band, same for today.
Yesterday went to
BBT for lunch and was late for band but me and
Xue Qi never get scolding.
Also, yesterday and today, by the time I reach home I was so tired and don't feel like doing anything.
Yesterday I didn't do much meaningful things because I played Restaurant City the whole day.
At night before I sleep I continued reading Birthing house.
It's a ghost-story book by the way.
Today I slacked a lot after coming home but in the end I still complete drawing and colouring two roses for my art.
I am so happy about one thing is that my art got displayed outside the school hall.
Though it's all the way to the left that corner but at least better than nothing.
Also my mother's friend gave me an
Easter present, an
Easter egg.
-Pictures will be in the next post.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 14, 2009 - 9:12 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I forgotten to put the picture of the hole puncher in the previous post..
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 8:36 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today I thought it will be another boring day but I was wrong.
The first half of the day was nothing really great but until until almost the end of assembly period, there is public canning.
Also today have Chinese common test 2, I fell asleep and Miss Ngor threaten me if I fall asleep again she is going to use the whiteboard duster to throw at me.
Then I don't dare to sleep back.
During biology for no reason why I suddenly got very high then started to joke a lot then mess with the seeds we are supposed to do experiments with.
I pull out the lens from the magnifying glass and I start my nonsense already.
We are actually supposed to count the number of seeds by their length.
After counting like a few, because I suddenly high and do funny things to the seed.
I 'CUT' the seed.
LOL!
Then for some reasons after biology Celester also become like very high then we keep joking during maths lesson then never listen much.
Even if we listened I don't think we will understand what Mr Rizuan said.
After school I went to BBT with Celest, Jeroyln, Xue Qi, Staphanie and Yeok Hoon.
On the way there all I can remember is Jerolyn being a mad girl and do some very big actions.
So funny.
Then I purposely buy green colour hole puncher, I couldn't deny, that green is very nice.
Then after reached home, played Restaurant City, chat with friends and some small things that I can't rememebr.
Then Jerolyn ask me help her with her blog skin, I got coned.
=X
I thought there was something wrong with the code but end up is because Jerolyn put the font in black in the posts and she wanted grey text.
In the end after like quite some time, I then realised that actually her fonts are black because she set it like that in the posts.
=.=ll
Waste my time..
=X
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 12:10 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I almost forget something really important..
I learn something from a movie today, except I'm changed a little of it.
Life Is Like A Block Of Wood, Plain, Boring, Square And Down To Earth. However If You Believe In It, In Yourself, You Actually Can Achieve Something Magical, Unexpected and Unimaginable.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 13, 2009 - 11:23 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today is another Monday.
The first half of the day I was really sleepy and wasn't in the right mood to talk.
Anyway after eating during recess, I got a little energy to talk and so I started joking around.
Today passed really quickly and when I was walking home, I saw this dead rat.
Its stomach was split open vertically and all that's left is it's skin, face, legs and tail.
At first I thought it was a dead giant lizard or something because it was long.
When I came closer to it, I realized it's a dead rat.
To the main point, I am often wondering when can I leave?
You, readers, might just think of "What the bloody hell are u talking about?".
What I mean when I leave is leave this world for good, I don't want to stay here any longer.
At least leave this school first.
I am so tired of everything.
Tired of my life, tired of the shit people give me, tired of all the nonsense and un-necessities.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 1:54 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today, went out with dad at around 1pm.
Went to Sun Tec to eat the fancy restaurant I went to last week.
Today's dishes wasn't as nice as last week.
I regretted one thing is I didn't take pictures of the dishes last week but I took them this week.
Also this week I ordered something different from last week.
The prawns was really delicious!
Then after that we went for a movie, 'The Fast & The Furious 4'.
I only like those cars and the way they drive and the movie was average, not that nice.
Then after that went to buy a lot of VCD and DVD to watch at home when anyone of us is bored.
Then I have been playing Restaurant City ever since.
Bryan gave me a goodnight call and now it's time for me to sleep.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 1:39 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I woke up quite early on Saturday morning, 9 plus.
I didn't go out in the afternoon because I stayed home to play Restaurant City.
Time passed really fast and it was time to go dance.
I actually have 2 class but because tomorrow is Denise's birthday we celebrated it yesterday.
We played games and stuff.
After that as usual after lesson finish which is like 7pm, then from 7pm to 9pm is like rest or alone time because 9pm there is practice hour.
Anyway that 2 hours was very long and painful because I have to look at him do all the funny shits that he always do.
Of course one thing for sure, I am alone again.
All I really did was stare at blank space and time passed really slowly.
Then after dance, went home play Restaurant City again.
Haha!
I really am addicted to it.
Also slept quite late.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 1:33 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Last Friday was Good Friday, it was a public holiday and that means I don't have dance class.
I went to Bryan's house that day and he introduced me this facebook game called Restaurant City.
In the end now I am kind of addicted.
ZZZ!
Bryan downloaded Confessions Of A Shopaholic but in the end because the sound was so bad that the image was like 1 minute early and I just couldn't catch on any more because there isn't any sub titles so I didn't really watch it.
That day passed really fast because of Restaurant City and I only went home at around 11 or 12 pm slash am.
My mother wasn't happy about it but I didn't bother.
I prepared my own things and went to play Restaurant City again.
I only slept at 3am.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 10, 2009 - 3:34 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I went to East Coast with Ming Chuan yesterday after school and cycled whole day.
After reaching parkway, it started to rain not long after.
We, well technically me, ate lunch and we went to the arcade to spend some time while waiting for the rain to stop.
After the rian stopped, we joked on the way to East Coast.
After crossing the tunnel he then asked me if I know how to get out of there and I said "I'm not very sure of this place. I nearly got lost last time. East Coast's exits looks all the same to me."
Then he said "haha! Then two people who doesn't know how to get out of East Coast, come to East Coast together. If we get lost, remember to buy newspaper. Headline 'Two idiots got lost at East Coast'."
Anyway, we cycled from one end to another end.
I was wondering why Shi Ting said that there is a very beautiful view at one end.
I was curious so we cycled the whole of east coast park and I saw this.
I am not sure whether is she talking about the path and view of the place but I certainly like this part.
The air that I inhaled in never felt so fresh before and the sky was beautiful.
When the sky was dark I could clearly see the stars and it was amazing.
Sad to say I couldn't take picture of the night sky because my phone's camera is bad and even when I took the night sky it will just be pitch black.
So I didn't take it but that beautiful scene will always remain in my heart.
The beauty of the stars, always shining above all.
Nobody sees it because the city is forever so bright and the beaming lights from the city overcomed the glistening light that is coming from the stars.
Though we do not see it, it doesn't mean it isn't there.
It's just like some important things in life.
When you don't see something, it doesn't mean it isn't there.
Anyway, after cycling for hours I was tired and my butt really hurts.
We decided to go for Pizza for dinner and while walking, I saw this really cute puppy.
'Freaking Adorable!'
After that we went back to parkway but realised that parkway didn't have Pizza Hut then decided to go Suntec for it but it was late and we were afraid that they are closing down so we decided to go to Singapore Post for Long John Silver.
At Long John Silver, I saw Farah, my secondary two very good friend.
She didn't change a bit, except growing taller and looking prettier.
She is still as happy-go-lucky and happy as usual.
I then remembered the times I had with her, Pek Lian and Shahidah.
Always laughing and doing nonsense in class.
Making fun of Nigel, Choon Tat, Robin and Desmond.
After that I asked her for her number and after finishing my meal I went off.
I went home, did facial watched television for awhile, talked to Anthony on msn and went to sleep.
I had great fun yesterday.
Though some problems happened, I know one thing for sure.
'Never let fear overcome you, keeping you from playing the game'..
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 9, 2009 - 2:38 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
The previous post I mentioned I learn something.
I learnt that the problems I am facing now is actually very minor ones and there are more unfortunate people comparing to me.
Mr Ho showed about this video where this guy he was born to have a sickness that caused him to be a disabled.
He couldn't walk nor talk but his father never gave him up.
They invented a machine for him to communicate with people.
It's like when he think of something the computer helps him to speak.
This guy graduated from high school and also from Collage and currently studying at a University.
I thought to myself, this guy's life is far more worse than mine.
What is my small little friendship problem comparing to his problem of disability.
I also learnt that you can achieve too even without the help of friends.
I am going to learn to be independent.
Though being the only one in class not being able to communicate well with classmates or friends from other levels, but I know one thing for sure is I learn.
I learn my mistakes whenever something bad happens or there is some misunderstanding.
Just because something said by someone was manipulated doesn't mean it's totally true.
I know out there, there will be people hating me like now.
Just because I am a new person to join in, doesn't mean they will accept me.
What I cannot understand is, why others backstabbing me all I did was keep quiet.
When I say something, it's like as though it's a really big matter and the sky has fallen.
Also, gossipping and backstabbing is two totally different things.
Gossipping is whereby it had happened before and people just talked about it while backstabbing is saying something that is untrue and totally off.
There are others out there talking bad about me and when I talked bad about something, 'oh the sky has fallen~!'.
ZZZ!
Anyway my life is just very unfair.
The things I do, people just takes me for grunted.
I guess I just have to ignore everything and move along~
I don't want to say more.
-Bottling everything up from now..
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 12:19 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
This week is a really messy week.
I will not blog about what happened in school today because I'm too tired to even talk about it.
Anyway after finish school I went home to watch my favorite movie; Twilight.
After that I took a nice long hot comfy shower and I have been doing my art since.
Then after that now I'm going to sleep.
I also learnt a lot of things today - will blog about it next time.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 6, 2009 - 11:10 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I thought that my nightmares will be better someday but I guess that it just goes worse.
Can you ever imagine then in a class, with no friends at all and all you can count on is yourself.
I am pissed, yes.
What I couldn't understand is I changed my attitude.
I made my tolerance level higher, I treat people better.
When I'm sad or angry I just vent it on myself.
I kept everything in for the past two and a quarter year and I had enough.
Is it even a sin for me to like vent it out?!
It takes time for people to change and I know I changed for the better.
Still people is treating me as shit as ever, no.
Worse than shit!
What had I done wrong?!
Why when I ask nobody tell me?!
I think I really should isolate myself.
Then I will not have this type of problem!
I am so angry at myself for caring so much about others and not myself!
People keep telling me that they are not worth it.
Just that I am so stupid I couldn't ignore something that is in front of me.
I couldn't understand is why they too have attitude problem but they can forgive each other.
For my case, it just seemed like every single fucking thing is my fault and I am the cause of it.
From now on, I am only going to concentrate on people who treasures me.
I know people who truly treats me as friend is Bryan my SFF, Ming Chuan, Noel, Anthony and Ka Khay.
Also, Su Yi, Shi Ting, Pei Ling and Celester - but not totally sure about them because I just get close to them recently.
It just seemed to me that I can be myself in front of them without them hating me once.
I really admit I have a bad attitude but I am the type of person whereby you treat me nice I will treat u nice too.
Today, rough day.
No mood to do anything else but to relax.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 10:56 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Though these aren't exact but I saw 3 different colours.
Red, Yellow and White/Silver (I couldn't remember clearly which was it)
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 9:38 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I forgotten about 1 important part about yesterday.
While on my way home in my dad's car, about seven to eight Lamborghini passed us.
The motor of the car is like amazingly nice.
Looking at the price of Lamborghini, it's like as though you are driving a condo on the street.
One of those cars costs like estimated above one million dollars.
Also, the pictures I am going to post is not the Lamborghini I saw on the street.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 5, 2009 - 7:15 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
PANDA!
Hee!
My favorite animal~!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 6:30 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today is Sunday and it's family day with my dad again.
As usual we went to Sun Tec but because I wasn't hungry so we decided to catch a movie.
I watched Unborn and it was quite interesting.
It wasn't scary but just that the storyline is new to me so it's kind of 'counted' as interesting.
After reaching home, it's a disaster!
QQ and Belie prison break, no no, balcony break into the house.
They broke a lot of expensive vases and tear my Ping Ping's toy puppy now the whole front of the face is ruined.
Ping Ping of course is terrified.
Once I unlock the door she barked for help, poor thing.
I wonder did she get raped by the two male dogs.
=X
Anyway I cleaned the mess up and pick their poop up - eeew!
I am so tired now, no mood to do any art.
Also I bought a bag just now.
To me I think it's cute but I'm a little scared that people might say my bag looks childish.
Picture of it will be posted in the next post.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 1:50 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
The chocolate Ming Chuan bought for me..
Thoughtful..
I am glad I have a friend like him.
=')
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 1:36 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today is also another ordinary day.
Oh and about the Nasal Cancer thing I still couldn't confirm if I really have it or not but I am just suspecting.
Even currently I am suspecting of myself having cancer, I hope I have it.
So that I can quickly end this suffering I am having.
Anyway today I kept and cleaned my room thoroughly because Shi Ting and Su Yi is supposed to come to my house for sleepover but they have something on.
They only told me that they not coming only at estimated 7:30pm.
GRRRR!
I kept my room in a hurry so that I have enough time to meet up with Ming Chuan because I need to go to Sun Tec to buy something.
In the end I tire myself badly and I only meet him at 3:30pm and I still have dance class at 5pm so I have to like leave Sun Tec around 4:30pm.
As usual, Ming Chuan escort me all the way until my dance studio.
One thing that stunned me was he bought me chocolate, the big box of Belgian chocolate that I told him I preferred.
Anyway, today's dance is as usual - I felt emotionless when I dance with
him - the asshole
.Why should I even care?
He is not my friend anymore so why should I even bother?
Anyway that's about it, about today.
It's just as boring as ever.
This is my life - BORING~!
Though uh..I am actually sad deep down but I guess people don't really care so..Uh..Ya..
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 4, 2009 - 2:33 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
These are the most recent art pictures I drew.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 2:16 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I didn't go to school today because I was sick.
Sick as in not fever, cough not cold sick..
Nor is it emotional sick.
I am suspecting I am having cancer.
Recently I have been having headaches and it hurts really badly and even eating panadol doesn't help.
Including the often symtoms of nose bleeding, I suspect I have nose cancer.
I know it sounds funny but there is really such things.
Causes of Nose Cancer or Nasal Cancer
The exact cause of nose cancer is unknown but many risk factors are said to be associated with the development of the nose cancer. Some of them are the exposure to certain chemicals and metals, personal history of developing other cancer, and some environmental factors. The metals include nickel and chromium and chemicals used in manufacturing.
Symptoms of Nose Cancer
The symptoms of nose cancer or nasal cancer are nonspecific. This is because the early symptoms shown by this disease are very much similar to less serious nasal problems like the swelling of sinuses, frequent headaches, accompanied by other chronic infections and also blurred vision. The main symptoms of nose cancer or the nasal cancer are a blockage or congestion in the nose. This nasal congestion is often followed by the nose bleeds or a lump in the neck.
There you have, descriptions of Nasal Cancer...
I couldn't believe it too but I had went to see a doctor..
*sigh*
I have:
-swelling of sinuses
-frequent headaches
-blurred vision (sometimes)
-blockage or congestion in the nose
-frequent nose bleeds
Finally I am dying...
=)
Wei Jie will be so happy that I am dissapearing from this world soon.
One thing for sure I know was, my grandmother (father's mother) and grandfather (mother's father) died from cancer.
Also, my uncle and mother got cancer before, so chances of me getting it is high.
I wish it could hurry just end my life already.
=)
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 2:14 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I am so fucking invisible, I know a lot of people wish I could just die. I wish I could just
disappear forever. I am always feeling not wanted, always being used, being thrown away. Does anyone actually care how I really feel deep down?!
I guess not.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 1:43 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
On Thursday, it is another ordinary day until something happened during art lesson.
One of my classmates was complementing on this picture she found and she kept on saying something like "This fish nice
hor?" "This fish very beautiful
leh!"
For self entertainment, as usual I exaggerate my actions and words.
I deliberately said "
WAH!!
SOOO PRETTY-
FUL!"
Then I got rudely cut off by someone saying something like "Ni Hen
Kua Zhang Leh!!"
I admit, I was pissed!
It's because I did it deliberately, I don't need someone else to help me magnify this lame thing.
Fuck!!!!!
Of course it's exaggerating!
I had enough!
I don't need you people to magnify for me what I did on purpose!
It's not the fucking first time already!
If I ask all of you right at your face asking you, "If I don't exaggerate my words and actions, will you even treat me as a friend and mix around with me? Will you guys even notice my
existence?! Or will you guys will just treat me as transparent as ever? Just give me a fucking answer now and I will fucking leave you guys alone if you guys don't want to be my friend!"
If not, I will just try shutting up for the whole week, I bet nobody will ask why because I am invisible!
Nobody in class really give a damn about me, in fact if I just
disappear everyone will celebrate!
Damn it damn it!!
ARGH!!!!!!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~April 1, 2009 - 10:28 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today is a special day and it only happens once a year, April Fools Day.
Early in the morning when I come to school, I already hear people saying things like "Happy April Fools Day!" or "ha ha! April Fools!".
I tried to keep my defence up just in case someone play prank on me.
Though Wednesday have a shorter school hour, I still felt that the day passed really slow.
During Chinese lesson I even nearly fall asleep.
I skipped band today and went to Bryan's condo to play basketball.
Before that, we watched C.S.I New York and by the time we went down was around 6pm.
After that we played a friendly match, I wasn't help at all because there is 6 people in total and I'm the only girl.
Also, I don't really know how to play basketball and I was very afraid of people banging onto me.
We played till around 8pm and went for dinner at Serangoon Garden with Bryan and Louis.
Though the food there is nice but I don't like it because the place have a short ceiling and it was very stuffy and hot.
We ordered 2 Stingrays - one spicy one non spicy (because Bryan doesn't know how to eat spicy), Baby Clams with chili, Chicken Wings, Satay and I ordered Chickenchop.
Also drinks and desserts too.
I was quite full and I had forgotten a very important thing, which is I am trying to go on a diet yet I still eat so much.
After that here I am, blogging.
First half of the day felt very long but after school ends, the time passed really fast.
I had fun today and I hope I can have fun every single day.
I have to stop here because I have a Geography test to study for.
-Currently still waiting for Twilight SAGA official guidebook to arrive in Singapore, trying to find more time to do my art and I really need to learn how to manage time and my weight already.
*Time is really very precious, cherish it, manage it and you will not feel that you are wasting your life by doing nothing.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 1:22 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Picture of the mouse pad I bought at Bugis ; Gift A Name
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
