~June 28, 2008 - 11:07 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Now is already counted the 2nd day of me being single...
I still cannot forget him...
Some times all of a sudden, memories of him flashes through my mind...
Then tears will start rolling off my cheeks...
I told my mother that I keep crying, I cant stop...
Im so sad...
Then my mother tell me, "just let time take it's course..."
Haiz....
What I really cannot believe is he have been keeping this from me for so long already...
I love him so much, I'm so faithful to him...
Yet he do this to me...
Life is so unfair...
Especially to me...
I hate myself for being so stupid to cry over a guy who dosen't even like me anymore...
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 2:12 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Haiz..
I found the real reason y he broke off with me...
He already lost intrest in me or in the relationship since 2 months ago...
I am very angry now because he should have told me earlier before i love him more and more everyday...
I cant forget the times we are together, no matter happy or sad time, it is still wonderful.
However the more I thought about what a jerk he is for not telling me 2 months ago,
the more my hatred grew.
Now I hate him so much I just want to go right to his door and slap him.
What is the point of saying these while I didnt really do it...
I was at Bryan's house because he is the only really true friend I have...
After calling him, he immediatly drive to my block and fetch me to his house.
He tried cheering me up by doing silly actions and say funny things...
ARGH!!!! IM JUST SO PISSED AT THAT SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!
End up after I calmed down a little i decided to call him hoping after hearing what he have to say,
I will feel much better.
After calling him, I straight forward shoot him from every corner.
Everything I said about him leaving me are all bullseye.
End up, he couldn't take it anymore and he cried.
What can I say?
Im a saddist, when I see someone who made me cry cries, it makes me feel so happy.
Even though I felt a little better scolding him, I still cried.
I just cant forget him, it's going to be 9 months soon but he just give up like that.
I went home at about 12am and I thought showering will make me feel better,
it didn't make me feel better but i cried in the shower...
I cant take it anymore so I told my mother what happened and why I went to Bryan's house. (Common sense I didn't tell my mother I went to a guy's house)
She told me some 人生道理 and I was quite happy.
I thought she will scold me for crying and things like this.
Im so glad that my mother, my sister and Bryan (my SFF) stood by me when I really need them.
I really couldn't ask for more...
Have to be glad Im hurt emotionally but Im still alive... LOL? no link to the topic Im talking about...
LOL...
I really have to move on, to the path I choose.
I will depend only on myself,
because I'm strong. =D
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~June 27, 2008 - 7:23 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Haiz...
My bf I mean ex-bf... just break off with me...
I fell back into depression...
I never felt like this for a very long time...
So... im single again...
I was at Plazza Singapura, he asked me if I want to watch movie but I dont have the money...
I told him already but he asked me 3 times...
I try talking to him but i repeated the same question for 6 times then i snaped...
I kinda talk very impolitely to him...
I just cant take it when people ignore me...
Makes me feel like im an idiot talking to myself...
I hate that feeling...
I hate myself...
I hate my temper...
but I cant do anything...
because I have been like that for 16 years.....
I do not want to suffer this fate again so im going to remain single...
He did ask me if i want to continue the relationship but the problem is,
I do not want him to get back with me just because I said I want to...
I do not want the relationship to continue just because he felt pity for me....
I am going to wait for time to heal my wounds...
Anyway im trying to move on already...
Forcing myself not to cry because i cried a lot just now and now my head hurts...
Trying hard to forget him....
Do not mention anything about JEFF to me...
Im scared that I might break down...
So...
Haiz...
T.T
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~June 20, 2008 - 4:22 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I feel like cosplaying Allen Walker from D.Gray-Man but I want to cosplay him wearing the new white fury coat.
Someone say my face not suitable for white hair, another say girls not suitable cosplay guy character.
TSK! Kinda pisses me off.
I only want to try it out only, ment not much harm I think.
Haiz...
However im scared that people say I dont look like...
What should I do.... T.T
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~June 18, 2008 - 4:47 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
These few days I was watching anime, Akiko & Siew Hwee keep asking me to watch D.Gray man so I decided to give that anime a shot.
After watching it, now im craving for it...
What should i do?
Episode 88...
HAYAKU KUDASAI!
TSK!
hehe...
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~June 11, 2008 - 2:02 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today, I went to school first then my bf escot me home, then we decided to go shopping.
We went bugis first and played arcade.
After that we went sun tec because his mother told him there is a job available for him.
He will be working as a waiter at the convention center, 1 hour $6 and taxi fare is provided by the company.
Which is sun tec lol...
I was really tired and I'm still tired...
We went shopping after going to the job interview.
We walked pass Minitoons and i saw this quite special handphone pouch so, he bought it for me.
Well that's all! IM SO TIRED~! LOL!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~ - 1:54 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
On Saturday 8/6/08 was my cousin's wedding.
They held the wedding at Marina Oriental Hotel and the hotel is beautiful.
I only get to take one picture because there were a lot of people and moving around alone is a little wierd.
After going in, on the table, there are cute little couple bear handphone key chain and a box of chocolate box.
My sister took the chocolate so I took the couple bear handphone key chain.
I didnt really had a great time because I was too full.
=.=ll
I wont get into details what are the dishes...
Well, that's all! XD
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~June 6, 2008 - 5:14 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Hehe!
I forget to update blog...
I have a sudden addiction to maple private sever then now playing all kinds of funny sever.
Like one of them, everyone is GM, the stats are 1000 for all when u go in and u can just use the !command to get whatever you want.
It's so cool being a GM!
Cash items are only sold for 1 meso and the command is !shop.
Isnt it so cool?!
HAHAHAHA!!!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~June 2, 2008 - 12:30 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today is no special occasion.
HOWEVER!
Because my dad have the $80 voucher to Ichiban Boshi, I ordered a lot of great BUT expensive food.
Such as:
-Ikura sushi = 2 plates (which is 6 sushi)
- Unagi Kepanyaki
- Salmon Teriyaki
- Salmon Sashimi = 2 plates (in total 12 pieces)
- Sakura sushi = 2 plates (in total 6 sushi)
I dont have to explain the rest because those are very odinary like:
- Edamame
- Chawamushi
-*I cant remember the rest because mostly are the expensive ones and today i really had a lot*
After finishing my meal, we went shopping then before we leave the mall, I spot something...
Something REALLY REALLY CUTE!
It's sooo cute isn't it?!
I just cant help it, im like so attracted to such cute stuff...
Heh heh...
Well that's all ^_^
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
~June 1, 2008 - 11:26 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
(People who dosent know anything about SL can skip this post)
Im supposed to post this yesterday night but I exploded yesterday.
Someone made me pissed by changing the group title to "Fucker#1"
What pissed me is, why nust that person change that paticular group title?
Why cant he change loli's potion instead of loli's dolls?
Then plus that very same person promised me 2 things before and i got even more mad thinnnking about it.
After that, i wasnt angry with him already, i tried talking nicely to him in msn.
HOWEVER, he thought i was angry with Bryan so i explained.
Then i was typing halfway, I do not know what the freaking hell is with him.
He just said "nights goodbye" and went off. This made me nearly explode already.
After he went offline, Aruruu gave me L$750 to buy the AO first.
Bryan wanted to give me L$300 so after I buy the AO and Bryan is done cashing out his lindens.
Then Ill return Aruruu L$300.
After buying the AO, I went to fermi and opened up a skybox to edit the AO and transfer everything to "Zhao" (It is an AO that i prefer to use)
I finished editing, this issue happened before, i clicked "take" already and the AO dissapear in front of me.
I thought it went into my inventory but i couldn't find it.
Then when i asked Aruruu and Lain, they both say that the AO is just right on the floor.
Then immediatly i know, that very same issue happened before and I am never going to get back my AO.
I explained to them and I also message to the creator of the AO.
I hope he/she will be kind enough and give me another new one.
After awhile, I want to sleep.
The air condition wont work well, the air blown out is warm and not cold.
I was tired and hot so i started throwing tetrum.
Then I was so pissed I keep yelling while talking to my mother.
Then she yelled at me...
Why does bad stuff always come at 1 chain and yesterday all these stuff made me cry badly.
I was thinking like
"why does my life always turns out this way?!"
"I hate my life, I hate myself"
"Since I find no meaning in life, I might as well just die"
"I'm really tired of my life, I dont want to live anymore"
After crying, I was so tired.
So I went to sleep...
Trying hard to forget everything...
As usual...
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
THE BLACK ROSE..Y
MOTTOY
Art Is My Life, Designing Is My Passion, Success Is My Future, Happiness WILL Last Till My Twilight Years
THE LADYY
Name: *-* Crystal Chan *-*
Nick: Shirayuki Mizuki, 瑞希 白雪
Age: *-* 17 *-*
Gender: *-* Female *-*
Zodiac Sign: *-* Capricorn *-*
Birthday: *-* 1st January *-*
School: *-* MacPherson Sec *-*
Occupation: *-* Student *-*
Affiliations: *-* Free Tinker *-*
Current Status: *-* Single *-*
SHE LOVESY
-Her Romeo
-Hobbies and Interests:
Chatting, Shopping, Listening To People's Troubles, Watching Anime, Day Dream, Listening To Music, Drawing, Singing, Dancing, Being Very Happy, Swimming, Sight Seeing, Happy-Go-Lucky
-Favorite Animals:
Panda, Baby Seals, Penguins, Dolphins, Killer Whale, Dogs
-Favorite Books:
Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn, Birthing House, Madly Murderous, Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul on Love & Friendship
-Favorite Movies:
Horror Movies, Saddist Movies & Comedies
Those movies that will carve deep in my memories. As long as they are good movies I like them.
-Favorite Music:
Hip-Hop, Pop, Rap, R&B & Classical
-Favorite Shows:
Drama:
Fated To Love You （命中注定我爱你）， Corner With Love （转角遇到爱）， Devil Beside You （恶魔在身边）， Why Why Love （换换爱）， The Clue Collector (霹靂MIT), Black Sugar Macchiato （黑糖马奇朵）, Hana Kimi - Japanese Version （花样少年少女）
Japanese Anime:
Chrno Crusade, Tsukuyomi Moon Phase, Maboraho, Mahoraba, Ichigi100%, Card Captor Sakura, Chobits, Kyou Kara Maou, Full Metal Alchemist, Naruto, Ouran High School Host Club, Aishiteruze Baby, Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu, Ai Yori Aoshi, Magister Negi Magi Mahou Sensei Negima, Fruits Basket, Hand Maid May, Love Hina, DearS, Koi Kaze, Death Note, Tsubasa Chronicals, XXXHolic, High School Girls, School Days, Yamato Nadesico Shichihenge, Sumomo Mo Momo Mo, Gakuen Alice, Suzuka, Mermaid Melody Pichi Pichi Pitch, Shakugan No Shana, Rozen Maiden, Strawberry Panic, Inukami, Shuffle! Memories, kamichama karin, Beating Angel Dokuro-chan, Demonbane, Futakoi Alternative, Avatar The Last Air Bender, Devil May Cry, Kimikiss Pure Rouge, Rosario + Vampire, Vampire Knight, D.Gray-Man, Elfen Lied, Trinity Blood, School Days, Jigoku Shoujo, Blood+
SHE HATESY
-Boring Movies
-Boring Books
-People Who Backstabs
-People Who Breaks Promises
-People Who Lies
-People Who Acts Nice
SHE WANTSY
-Pass O'level with good grades
-Get into Laselle
-Be a sucessful fashion designer
-Learn interior designing also
-Earning large sum of money
-Go Japan, Paris, USA, Canada
-Buy a silver convertable Volvo and house
-Design my own house
-Have a long drive through coniferous forest roads
-Forever remain SFF with Bryan
-Be with him for a very long time
-Remain Happy Go Lucky Always
-Live a healthy lifestyle, Mentally Socially and Physically
HER QUOTATIONSY
-Life Is Like A Block Of Wood, Plain, Boring, Square And Down To Earth. However If You Believe In It, In Yourself, You Actually Can Achieve Something Magical, Unexpected and Unimaginable.
-Hard Work, Integrity, Enthusiasm, Perserverence, Good Luck & Determination Is The Key To Sucess And Dreams.
-There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.
-Never Let Small Matters Bring You Down, Never Give Up Just Because You Think You Can't.
-NEVER Cherish People Who Doesn't Cherish You.
-As Time Goes By, You Learn Things That You Can Never Learn From Books Or From School.
-Work Hard To Persuit Your Own Happiness And Future.
-Never Let Anyone Stop You From Doing What's Right, What You Like or Best At.
-Only Allow Guys Similar to Edward Cullen, Or Better, To Be With You.
-Everyday, Happy Go Lucky.
A Girl Can Dream You Know?
TWILIGHT SAGAY
-So ready for this to be the end, for this to be the twilight of your life, though your life has barely started. You're willing to give up everyhting. It's not the end, it's the beginning.
-"It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" "I like the night," Bella replied. "Without the dark, we'd never see the stars."
-When You Can Live Forever, What Do You Live For?
-Nothing Will Be The Same.
