~March 1, 2009 - 12:40 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Today is a very tired day indeed.
I woke up 7am as usual because there is band today.
I fell asleep during combine because I am too tired already.
Anyway, after that I went home to prepare then went out with Ming Chuan.
I met him at about 4pm, I know it's a little late because I have to like leave at around 4:45pm because I have dance class at 5pm.
I bought Famous Amous for my family, didn't eat it for a very long time already.
Anyway, today was raining heavily and I forgotten to take my shoe bag when I left house so I went back to get it.
He accompanied me as usual, I think I gotten used to him accompanying me going home or something.
Anyway after that while we were walking, sharing umbrella, I feel very embarrassed.
By the way he was the one holding onto the umbrella.
We were talking and I was saying things like "WAH! Very pro hor? See my shirt! It's wet!"
He was standing at my right and he placed his left hand on my left arm and pulled me closer to him.
My heart raced 1 beat after another, the rate kept increasing, I have no idea why this happened.
Anyway, my shoe flooded and my legs were wet.
The worst part is when we were crossing the road, one cab was driving so fast that the water splashed the both of us.
The only thing we could do is laugh.
After that because I am late and taking bus isn't going to help so I took a cab to the dance studio.
After reaching the dance studio, I said goodbye to him.
It seems painful to just see him go like this but I have no choice because I have class.
I think our friendship took another big step closer, I think I have a little crush on him but this is very risky.
I am putting my 6 years friendship on risk if I really one day confess to him and he doesn't feel the way I feel for him OR like he said, he doesn't want to have a girlfriend because he know he is not prepared to have one and he doesn't want to hurt the girl.
I am really satisfied I have a friend like him, always cracking jokes, always thinking of others before self, always snatching with me to pay for stuff I bought.
I always have fun going out with him but some times I really am too tired to crack any jokes.
Anyway, today I also realised something.
I not only am invisible in school but also at the dance studio.
It wasn't like this before, I think the main cause of this change is because after he broke up with me he avoids me.
The attention always goes to him rather than to me, obvious.
So currently, I am a nobody, an invisible person, a small fry to so many people.
It just seemed that with or without me as a friend just doesn't seems to make any difference.
Just one less shadow that's all.
I really should learn to get used to always being unoticable, invisible and unwanted.
This way, I will not even complain or say even anything about this matter.
Then people can just go on with their lives with or without me.
Because I am invisible.
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
