~January 24, 2009 - 1:03 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
I'm so happy this week!
Ha!
It's like since a very long time I felt this way, without the help of a boyfriend.
Recently I just feel that my life is so free and I can do whatever I want.
I understand myself more now that at times I just want someone I know to be near me and not speak even a word.
This year's art is going to be tougher than last year's one and I am going to work on that after I finish blogging.
Recently I have been slacking and enjoying too much already and I think it's time I start doing stuff I should do.
I remember it started off with Monday me waking up, looking into the mirror and smiling at myself for no reason and my whole day brightens up.
End up I did that every morning for this week and I just realised that I should do it everyday.
I like the lifestyle of a happy-go-lucky girl and no matter what bad things or names people call me I just continued being myself and ending up being closer friends with them.
I also realised that actually nobody hates me in school, just that they feel that I'm always so down and monotonous they are just afraid of me.
I this week learnt about myself way more than last time and I just like it this way now.
My life doesn't sucks anymore and I know tomorrow will be a better and brighter day.
Oh!
Tuesday after Ming Chuan finish his school, he and Mi Mi is supposed to accompany me go book hunting but end up Mi Mi didn't show up and "put aeroplane" on Ming Chuan.
End up, Ming Chuan accompany me went book hunting for Twilight at Bugis.
We went to Long John Silver for dinner, he kept insisting he treat me for dinner but I just kept rejecting, he ignore whatever I said and ended up buying my meal for me.
He still escort me home..
On Wednesday after band, I went out with Ai Ling to Singapore Post to eat KFC then went Popular to buy my school necessities and I saw Eclipse!
It's the last book but it's dirty, so tempting to buy but I rather spend that money buying a "CLEAN" one.
Thursday after Ming Chuan finish school, same thing happened, Mi Mi is supposed to accompany me go book hunting for Eclipse at Orchard but "put aeroplane" on Ming Chuan again.
We were finding it at Kinokuniya (I don't know if it's this spelling or name of the book store) and I was finding so hard I just got dizzy looking at the number of books there is.
All of a sudden Eclipse just pop right in front of my face, I stepped back to get a clearer view and then I then realised Ming Chuan is holding onto it.
I still jumped for joy then after that went for dinner and he paid for my dinner again, I feel so guilty for letting him pay for my meals so I told him "drinks is on me, no rejecting!" and he agreed.
After that he STILL escort me home, I can tell by his facial expression he is tired..
Friday~! (which is yesterday)
Mi Mi FINALLY never "put aeroplane" on Ming Chuan then we went Bugis.
I went book hunting again for Breaking Dawn but they still haven't have it so we went walking aimlessly.
After that we just decide to watch movie, Love Matters.
It's very funny and a nice show, kind of like those that carves into my memory.
Then because I have dance class so I have to leave early and Mi Mi have some "dai ji" outside and he have to go too.
I was shocked when Ming Chuan said he is going to escort me home again.
What I ment is, he doesn't have to do that!
It's still day time and I can go home prepare my stuff then go for dance class myself but he just said he feels unsafe for me to go home alone, I insist that he doesn't do that but he didn't listen and still escort me home.
I remember this part the most, he asked me
"where is your dance class at?"
"lavenda.. why?"
"how do you go there?"
"the same way from my home to MRT only further down, at the bus stop."
"you go up, I'll wait for you here then I'll walk you to the bus stop."
"what?! you dont have to do that! I'm fine alone being alone!"
"I just feel it's not safe, you go up and do whatever you need to do. just take your time. I'll be waiting here"
"SERIOUSLY! I'm just fine going there alone! I have been walking this path for like so long and see I'm standing here safe and sound!"
"do you want to wait until something really happened to you then you regret?"
I thought to myself "this isn't getting anywhere because I know he will be waiting" so I message him 'GO HOME!!!' hoping that it will work.
End up after preparing and everything, I went down and THERE HE IS!!!
At that very moment, I just felt that Ming Chuan is like Edward Cullen..
The handsome posture he was sitting, the very beautiful smile he have and the amazing glow coming out from him.
"I thought I told u to go home, I feeling very guilty now because you have waited for me"
"Why are you guilty for??"
"Wei Jie never escort me home before. Can say it's been a long time since anyone, a guy other than my dad or step dad, ever escort me home. I just feel guilty that you are just a friend and you escort me home and still waited for me. I just don't know how to show you back how greatful I am"
"Come on! I just feel it's not safe for you especially this area you are living at. Cant you stop nagging?"
I have nothing more to say so I just shut my mouth, I really am very guilty for letting him escort me home for the 3rd time this week already and now he still waited for me at the void deck AND walked me to the bus stop.
We did joke and talk on the way to the bus stop, I just feel guilty for letting him walk me through and fro near my place..
I just felt there is a mixture of feelings, I am very happy that I felt wanted by another friend and at the same time very guilty for letting him wait for me.
Yesterday is another day yet to be forgotten, I felt wanted again, by a 6 years friend. =D
-Currently reading New Moon already
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
