~January 14, 2009 - 11:02 PM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
1st Jan is my birthday which is can say the worse day of my life ba.
That is the day Wei Jie decide not to be with me.
Then I didn't go to school the next day and that following Saturday I realised Wei Jie was lying to me all along.
Whenever I asked him "do you still like me?" and he said "ya".
Ever since the day he broke up with me, he already lost feelings for me and on 31st Dec he dare to ask me for patch.
I got very lost after that, a lot of bad stuff happened to me.
All attacking me at once while I am trying very hard to stand up again.
I at first had turned emo and become depressed.
All I can thought of is dying and I really did intend of suicidal.
I seeked a lot of help and one of the help I remember the clearest is Ka Khay scolding me and another one is of course my SFF Bryan.
I really thanked her for that scolding because after she scold me and I really did think about what I am I really going to do with my life.
I thought through and I have decided I don't care for people who doesn't cherish me at all.
Currently I am learning a lot of things about life, for once I really should pamper myself.
I am always minding what people think or say about me and always trying to change myself to fit in.
I realised that no matter how much I change, that person doesn't cherish me means they never will.
I also learnt from my mistake that people like Wei Jie is a playboy.
At first I thought the "like" he have for me is more like love type but after finding out the "like" he have for me is just lust, made me realised a lot of things also.
Currently I am very happy with what I have, friends like Bryan, Ka Khay, Alicer, Ai Ling and Chanel(Jerlin).
Actually there are can say a lot more but I don't know why I just don't feel like typing their name out.
Also recently I have been so busy with school, I really cannot be bothered with any other stuff other than school work.
What saddens me the most is I thought I gotten over Wei Jie already because I stopped thinking about him since school reopen.
However, last Saturday when I see him my heart aches and all I wanted to do is cry out.
I am so tired!!
My weekly schedule is so packed.
Monday - Band (till 6:30pm)
Tuesday - CCA concert (last Tuesday) & Fort Canning Heritage Tour (yesterday)
Wednesday - Band (till 6:30pm) & Dance Class (8:30pm)
Thursday - It's actually the only day I can rest so I'm going out tommrrow
Friday - Band (till 6:30pm) & Dance Class (8-10pm)
Saturday - Band then Dance Class (5pm-7pm) & Practice Hour (9pm-10pm)
Sunday - Family day
Yikes!
So busy busy busy~!
At the same time very tired, I always have not enough time to finish my homework but it's worth it because I am so busy I dont even care anything else except the things I am doing.
Wei Jie once said "I want to break with you now because I know I won't have time for u" blah blah blah..
Who is the one with not enough time now?!
HAH!
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
