~September 19, 2008 - 11:18 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Yesterday afternoon I actually intended to bring him to Sentosa, I wanted to make sandwiches, fruit juice, cook crabstick and buy cake to make up to him.
What I mean is because last month I haven't been able to celebrate his birthday properly with him, so I want to at least make him touched and at least make him like me back a little but because I have facial at night so I didn't go.
Last night was like a nightmare.
When I was on my way home from the place where I do my facial, I saw 1 missed call from him.
I was shocked and I sms him back asking him why did he call me for.
Then he tell me that next Wednesday he is free and ask whether today's meeting can be postpone to that day.
Then I say ok.
Then I am wondering why he is so busy plus it's already holiday so I asked him is it he got girlfriend?
Then he replied back "ya.."
At that moment I was shocked and sad, he lied to me about not wanting to have any girlfriends before National Service.
Then I called him then of course, he talk to me like no body's business.
He doesn't even care if I am his friend or not, he also doesn't care if I live or die.
Then after I hang up his phone, he sms me saying he have no girlfriend, he lied to me.
Then after a while he sms something like "Fine, since u still love me so much I give u 5 days to make me like you back. IF within this 5 days you cannot make me like you back then forget about me."
My first thought was "WHO THE MOTHER FUCKING HELL YOU THINK YOU ARE TO OFFER ME THIS KIND OF CHOICE?! YOU LIKE ME THEN TOGETHER THEN DON'T LIKE LIAO THEN DON'T GIVE A SHIT."
Because of my stupidity I thought I should give it a shot so I agreed.
Then after a while, a sms came saying "The deal if off. Just now that was my friend. Even if I did like you back I will not be happy."
So I reply him back asking him "So when you are with me, you are unhappy or happy?" and he said "unhappy"
Then I ask him "Then the girlfriend is what happen?"
Then he said "I had girlfriend de but she just broke up with me" and my thought is "SERVE U RIGHT! YOU TREAT ME BADLY, YOU KEEP LYING TO ME EVEN AFTER THE BREAK UP, YOU PLAY MY FEELINGS LIKE AS THOUGH YOU ARE PLAYING WIT TOYS. NOW IT'S PAY BACK TIME! BECAUSE YOU ARE SUCH A JERK THAT'S WHY YOUR GIRLFRIEND BREAK UP WITH YOU PLUS I BET THIS RELATIONSHIP IS ONLY LIKE WHAT? 2 WEEKS? HAH! I CAN'T WAIT TILL YOU GET A NEW GIRLFRIEND THEN SHE DUMP YOU AGAIN. I CAN'T WAIT TILL YOU SUFFER BADLY TILL YOU DIE!"
TSK TSK!
After a good cry and Wei Jie's advice, I feel much better after a night's sleep but 1 thing bad is that all these are affecting my sleep and in the morning I cannot wake up.
So, today I didn't go to school again.
Not that I do it on purpose but I really just can't sleep right and wake up at the right time.
Today is band farewell party and I hope I have a great time and also...
SERVE YOU RIGHT ASSHOLE! YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A LOSER IN DISGUISE, NO SOMETHING BETTER! YOU ARE NOT A LOSER IN DISGUISE, YOU ARE A LOSER YOURSELF! IQ ALSO NOT HIGH, I THOUGHT AT LEAST CHARACTER NICE. NOW YOU CHANGED FROM BAD TO WORSE, ARE JUST A WHOLE LOT OF SHIT AND CRAP THAT SHOULDN'T EVEN APPEAR IN MY LIFE. BOTH CHARACTER AND STUDIES BAD, YOU CAN NEVER HAVE A GOOD FUTURE. YOU THOUGHT NOW YOU ARE ALREADY GOING THROUGH NIGHTMARES? IM TELLING YOU, YOUR NIGHTMARES HAVE JUST BEGUN! I CURSE YOU THAT YOU FOREVER WILL NOT FIND ANOTHER GIRL BETTER THAN ME AND YOU WILL SUFFER EMOTIONAL PAIN EVEN AFTER YOU DIE. GO TO HELL LOSER!
WEEE!
Right now I have gotten over this and I will be looking forward to another brighter day like tommrrow and the day after tommrrow and etc etc.
My real happiness has just begun >=B
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
