~June 28, 2008 - 2:12 AM Y
*~* "It's twilight," Edward noted. "It's the safest time for us. The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" *~*
*~* "I like the night," Bella replied.
"Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." *~*
Haiz..
I found the real reason y he broke off with me...
He already lost intrest in me or in the relationship since 2 months ago...
I am very angry now because he should have told me earlier before i love him more and more everyday...
I cant forget the times we are together, no matter happy or sad time, it is still wonderful.
However the more I thought about what a jerk he is for not telling me 2 months ago,
the more my hatred grew.
Now I hate him so much I just want to go right to his door and slap him.
What is the point of saying these while I didnt really do it...
I was at Bryan's house because he is the only really true friend I have...
After calling him, he immediatly drive to my block and fetch me to his house.
He tried cheering me up by doing silly actions and say funny things...
ARGH!!!! IM JUST SO PISSED AT THAT SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!
End up after I calmed down a little i decided to call him hoping after hearing what he have to say,
I will feel much better.
After calling him, I straight forward shoot him from every corner.
Everything I said about him leaving me are all bullseye.
End up, he couldn't take it anymore and he cried.
What can I say?
Im a saddist, when I see someone who made me cry cries, it makes me feel so happy.
Even though I felt a little better scolding him, I still cried.
I just cant forget him, it's going to be 9 months soon but he just give up like that.
I went home at about 12am and I thought showering will make me feel better,
it didn't make me feel better but i cried in the shower...
I cant take it anymore so I told my mother what happened and why I went to Bryan's house. (Common sense I didn't tell my mother I went to a guy's house)
She told me some 人生道理 and I was quite happy.
I thought she will scold me for crying and things like this.
Im so glad that my mother, my sister and Bryan (my SFF) stood by me when I really need them.
I really couldn't ask for more...
Have to be glad Im hurt emotionally but Im still alive... LOL? no link to the topic Im talking about...
LOL...
I really have to move on, to the path I choose.
I will depend only on myself,
because I'm strong. =D
*~*There are things in life that are inevitable. Though it's tough and avoiding always seems the only solution. The real truth is facing it will make it better.*~*
